A U R E L I A ' S P O V
(tw slight mention of self harm)
You were laughing and talking with Gabriella, and obviously you were happy to be with her. But a slight part of you wanted to talk to Lando. Like, Lando had been there for you during everything that happened- Oscar too. And Gabriella wasn't? Or not as much as she used to be.
"Does everyone want to play a game?" Charles asks and there was an echo of agreements across the room.
"You guys play, I need to sort out my suitcase. Have fun!" Mama says as she leaves the room after saying goodbye.
"Let's not play monopoly again." Lando says, whilst looking across at Charles laughing.
"Definitely not." Charles says whilst laughing along.
"What! Come on monopoly is the best." You say, now laughing too.
"That's because you win every time Lia." Arthur says.
"Actually I won when we played in 2015." Charles says.
"Of course you would remember that." Oscar says.
"Okay, so no monopoly. Do you have uno?" Lando asks, looking down at you.
"Yes! It's in my room, i'll go get it." You say, whilst beginning to stand up but you get held down.
You look across and see Lando had wrapped his arm around your waist, not letting you get up. As you look back to the center of the room, you catch a jealous look from Oscar in the corner of your eye.
"Lando, i'm fine." You whisper.
"I'll get the game Lia, you stay here."
"How will you know where it is?" You ask, giving him a look.
Lando let's go of your waist and stands up, before placing one arm underneath your legs and the other around your back. Before you go to say anything he begins to walk to your bedroom.
"I don't know, but you should." Lando whispers.
30 seconds later Lando was gently placing you to sit down on the bed. You blush but try to hide it by tidying.
"Cant really find it without you telling me where it is y'know." Lando says, walking around the bed to stand in front of you before kneeling down to your level.
"Sorry, it's in the top of that cupboard over there." You say, pointing to a large cupboard on the furthest side of the room.
"Okay." Lando says whilst he stands up once again and begins to search.
After a few seconds of searching you see him pick something up and held it for a little while before putting it back in the cupboard. He looks back at you and gently smiles before going back to looking.
Immediately you try to think about what he could have possibly found when you realise. Your heart sinks and your emotions drop away.
a blade.
Whilst you were at university, there was these two girls who would say comments about your body. They probably ruined most of your teenage years having gone to your school for many years before you couldn't deal with it and left.
Although the first time you came home after leaving Noah, you had a relapse. Only small. If Charles hadn't almost walked in, it would have been more.
shit
The only people who knew were Gabriella and Arthur. Not even Charles. You made them promise to never tell him. But what if Lando did?
Not like you could go up to him and say "hey don't tell my brother you found a blade in my room, thanks." Thankfully, you hadn't used one in a while.
You were lost in your own thoughts, not noticing anything that was going on in reality. Until Lando gently holds onto your hand and you snap out of it.
"Lia?" He says.
"Yes?" You reply slowly.
"You doing alright?" He asks cautiously.
Great, now he thinks your depressed. I mean maybe you were? To be honest, you had no clue. It wasn't like you were sad 24/7, because you weren't.
"Yeah, i'm fine Lan." you reply, giving him a smile.
"Okay, i've found the game but we can stay here for a bit if you want?"
"Sure." you say, patting the space on the bed beside you for him to sit instead of in front of you.
Soon he was lying beside you with his arm wrapped around you, and you were lying your head upon his chest.
"Lia, you know if you want to talk to me you can do right?" He whispers and you nod.
"Don't lie to me, what did you find Lan." You whisper, just wanting to know the truth.
"I think you already know the answer to that." He whispers back.
"I promise you, i haven't in a long time." You lie. Well 3 months isn't a long time to everyone right?
"If you ever feel like doing it again, you call me. Okay? I will always help you whenever you need love. For anything." He whispers.
"Anything?"
"anything. And i will always answer.Even for a god damn spider." He says.
You both stay silent for a few seconds before Lando kisses your forehead.
"Okay... we should go downstairs now." He says finally.
"Yes..." You say, taking a breath.
The same as before, Lando gently picks you up and carries you. However this time you lean against him, moving your finger across his chest.
He places you down in the chair you were previously sat on and sits down beside you.
"Let's play!" Arthur says.
"I call Lia!"
"I call Lia!"
"I call Lia!" Gabriella, Oscar and Lando say at the same time.
"I know you all love me, but i can't be with three people on a team." You say, laughing slightly.
"Come with me Lia, prove them once again we are the best team." Lando says and you nod.
The teams were:
Charles and Arthur.
Oscar and Gabriella
You and Lando
After an hour of playing, you and Lando had won three, Charles and Arthur 1, and Gabriella and Oscar 1.
You were leaning on Lando's shoulder and he had wrapped his arm around your waist. Many times you could of sworn you saw jealousy from Oscar.
After finishing another game, that you and Lando had won, you begin to yawn.
"You tired?" Lando whispers into your ear and you nod.
"Yeah." You whisper.
"I'll take you up to bed." He says.
"I'm really tired guys, i'm gonna go to bed. Bye." You say as you and Lando leave. Once you were safely out of sight he picks you up.
The real reason why you were so tired was that you were afraid to sleep. Afraid that once you were asleep you had no control over the thoughts and dreams of Noah haunting you. That you knew the time in the hotel room would come straight back.
|| authors note ~. hope you enjoy! Exciting stuff coming up in a few chapters, not sure how many but will most likely happen in about 5 chapters. 🧡 ||
