Is It Fair?! [MalePregnancy] (Sequel of "This Isn't Fair")

Chapter 18: Small Steps

I woke up feeling something warm on my skin. Benoit was snuggled up against my chest and was snoring lightly; he was absolutely adorable. Reality suddenly crashed in and I had to stop staring at him. I put his head against the pillow as gently as possible before rushing toward the bathroom just in time where I emptied my stomach. Once I was done, I brushed my teeth before coming back into the bedroom. I was feeling like shit.

Benoit was sitting in his underwear in the middle of the bed, the covers all around him. He was looking at me with a small, worried frown on his face. "Are you alright? I heard you when you were in the bathroom..." He said in a small voice, stifling a yawn.

"I'm better now... Did I wake you up?" I asked, trying to change the subject.

He rubbed his eyes before answering. "No... I was just feeling cold..." He answered before yawning again which made me chuckle. I sat on the bed next to him and passed my hand through his hair which was now really long - past his shoulders. He scooted closer and hugged me. His head was on my chest and one of his hands was on my back while the other was on my thigh. "Mmhh, you're comfy..." He mumbled in a sleepy voice.

I smiled at the scene in front of me; a sleepy Benoit was always adorable to watch. I stroked his back gently while looking at his sleeping form. I didn't know how long I watched him sleep but this relaxing moment ended as soon as I heard him mumble these words... "...Love you..."

My eyes went wide and my heart began to beat really fast. With trembling hands, I put him back on the bed and I ran toward the bathroom where I splashed water on my face. I needed to calm down... I looked at myself in the mirror and I could easily see the fear in my eyes. I felt like the history was repeating itself all over again. I knew I shouldn't have gotten close to someone else... I knew it!

I breathed deeply for a few minutes until I was calm enough. Maybe it wasn't too late to change things... With that in mind, I made my way toward the kitchen and decided to eat something. Benoit entered in the kitchen when I was finishing to eat. He was still in his golden underwear, which left nothing for imagination, and was looking way too cute. "Hey..." He said before giving me a small smile as he made his way toward me. He kissed my cheek which lasted way too long to be just a simple kiss before taking a yogurt out of the fridge.

"How long did I sleep?" He asked in a sleepy voice.

"I-I don't know... About 45 minutes, I guess..." I said, trying not to let my emotions show into my voice.

"Oh... Mhh...Do you feel better?" He asked and I could see that he was trying to make me speak.

"Not really... I feel strange...But I feel a little better than two hours ago..." I answered, avoiding his eyes.

I heard him sigh before sitting on the chair next to mine. I could feel him looking at me from the corner of his eyes while he was eating his yogurt. "So.... Should we try to find something to get your son back?"

"Yeah...I guess we will have to prove that he never really cared... I don't know what to do... It's breaking my heart to know that he's awake but I can't see him or he will be hurt..." I mumbled as my eyes began to burn.

"Don't cry!! I'm sure we will find a solution!!" He said hastily. I could see from the look in his eyes and the way he was biting his lips that he was thinking about something. "Maybe Farrah could take care of him? Innocently bump into him and try to seduce him... I'll then ask him some questions and try to find as much info as possible... I could even try to see your son and tell him a few words from you!!" He exclaimed, getting excited at his own idea.

I smiled a little at his reaction, finding him completely adorable. "It could have worked if he didn't already know who you are..." I said with a sigh. This was going to be so much harder than I thought.

"Maybe I could just bump into him and tell him I'm sorry... Then I would just try to be nice and agree with everything he says... I really want to try... I want to help you... I want you to be happy..." He said while looking at me right in the eyes showing me how determined he was.

I closed my eyes and thought about it. His idea was tempting, especially if it could help me gain my baby back, but I was scared. "What if it doesn't work as planned? What if he hurt Jamel because of that?" I asked, biting my lips.

"Trust me. I won't let that happen..." He said in a soft voice as he put one of his hands on my cheek, stroking it slowly.

I gulped as I realized how close he was. His eyes were shining more than usual which made him even more beautiful. Then, as if the time was in slow motion, I saw him slowly getting closer until our noses were touching. The next thing I knew, he was kissing me. It was nothing like the drunk kisses we had in the past that I barely remembered, no, it was different. It was a slow, simple kiss which was really different from all the kisses I had in the past.

"I'm sorry; I shouldn't have done that..." He whispered while looking away from me.

"I-I... It's okay..." I answered in a low voice. "About your plan... If you want to try, I'm okay with it... And, mmhhh, thank you for... You know, being there for me..." I mumbled, looking at my lap. It wasn't easy to talk about my feelings; it always made me feel vulnerable.

Benoit gave me a shy smile, a huge blush on his cheeks. He looked adorable. "W-We should relax today and tomorrow. I'll find him and get answers. It's not like he has the rights to hurt a woman." Benoit said, giving me a small smile.

He looked so confident and so sure that it was going to work... His enthusiast made my hopes rise even if I didn't want to. I couldn't help but pray that my hopes wouldn't be destroyed...

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I'm so sorry for not updating before... So many things happened in my life... I don't know when the next update will be but I'll do my best to post it soon. What did you think about this chapter? Did you like it? What do you think is going to happen?

Also, the next chapter will be from Benoit's POV!