Why am I feeling this way? (Satoru×Suguru JJK fanfiction)

CHAPTER VI.

SUGURU POV:
Finally, I was able to talk to him! I was so happy and I wanted to hug him but I knew that he won't let me. "Okay..." I started leaving but then rememenered the main reason I even wanted to meet him. The gift. I took the box of sweets out of my bag and handed it to him. "For you..." He looked at me confusion but then he took it. "Tha-thank you..I guess.." he said nervously. I chuckled nervously again and stood up. "No problem..I guess I'll be going now.." I smiled. "Yeah but..if you need anything or..just wanna have company...I'm here for you, you know.." he said kindly. I nodded and tried to be cool about it but I felt like there were butterflies in my stomach at that moment. I finally left. I felt..better now. He wasn't mad at me anymore, right? I litteraly started dancing on my way to my room from happines because you know..I only wanted to be friends with him again. My best friend was finally back. And the best part was that he told me that he's here for me!
After I got back to my room, I started acting like a high school girl that just found out that their crush knows that they exist. But I didn't care about my actions. Not even in the slightest. I just wanted to enjoy this moment full of happines and joy. I putted my earphones on, yes I had them all the time with me because I can't survive without them and I started dancing to the most random songs that had good beats but we're not gonna talk about the lyrics. This was just me being me and being happy. And my happy equals cringy and hyped but who cares you know. SATORU IS MY FRIEND AGAIN! Or..more?..

SATORU POV
The moment Suguru left my room, tears started flowing out of my eyes. I couldn't believe what just happened. 'I'm here for you, you know..' Really?! How could I say such a thing as this? I couldn't even take care of myself, how could I be helping anyone? I was the most mentally unstabled person I knew. I was so stupid, so I cried it all out into my pillow. I don't know for how long I was there. I cried until I just didn't have any tears lefr. I looked at myself in the mirror. "I'm disgusting, stupid and a horrible person" I said to myself as I took out my little knife from the drawer. My wonderful self-harm knife.
I rolled up my sleeve and cutted my wrist but now, I cutted my vein. It started bleeding really badly and I panicked. I took some if my tissues from my desk and putted them on the wound of mine. It didn't stop the bleeding and I left lime I was about to pass out from blood loss. "Shit shit shit shit shit.." I quietly started repeating over and over again as I tried not to close my eyes. But then....I couldn't fight it anymore. I closed my eyes as I finally passed out and my bleeding body fell on the ground. It felt like death..or was this death?...Strange how death can be done..

YUTA PIV:
I was finally going back from my training with Nanami-san...but then..I smelled blood...I started following the smell of it and reached..Gojo-sensei's room? I thought that I was probably wrong but I was right..I heard something break from there. I knocked on the door as I started to get worried. "Gojo-sensei? Are you okay there?" I asked as my voice started shaking. I was scared because there was no answer from his room and he always answered. I knocked on the door again. "Gojo-sensei...if you don't answer me this time, I will come into your room...Gojo-sensei?!" I started to get a lot more worried than I was before and the smell of the blood started to feel lime it was getting closer to me or there's more of it now. And Gojo-sensei wasn't opening. I had to come in there! I easily broke the door open and stepped into his room and what I saw there horrified me. Gojo-sensei was laying on the floor unconscious in a pool of blood. It was coming out of his wrist. "GOJO-SENSEI?!" I yelled and panicked. I ran to him and checked if he's alive or not. Luckily, he was. I tried to carry him but he was in the blood so it wasn't easy to pick him up but I managed to carry him after like a minute. He was light as a feather but still..he was a lot more taller than me. But still, his weight was really small and that made me even more worried about him. Every minute,
Gojo-sensei could die now.. so I started running to Shoko because she was the only person I knew that could help Gojo-sensei from this state if it's even possible..

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