Mentally F*cked

fist meeting

"so what are you doing later?" Katie asked as she walked with Jade to their cars.

"Oh you know homework, I really gotta pass this test to get into Cosmetology y'know" Jade said as she rubbed her neck.

"College is hard" Katie said as she sighed grabbing her car keys from her jacket.

"I'll see you in a couple weeks" she said getting in her car.

It was winter break and the school decided to give the students a two week break for Christmas and New Year's week.

Jade nodded and watched Katie drive off, she got into her jeep starting it up and driving off towards her home, when she got there she sighed seeing her mom's car in the driveway.

"What the hell is she doing here?, she's not supposed to be home for another week or two" Jade said as she parked her jeep turning it off leaving her things inside.

She walked into the house and the smell of alcohol instantly hit her.

"Well it's about fucking time you got home!" Her mom screamed from the living room.

Jade walked into the living room to see her mom in the recliner with about 5 bottles of beer on each side of it.

"Well aren't you gonna say hi to me you little shit?" Her mom said angrily slurring her words in the process.

"I thought you weren't gonna be home for a couple more weeks?" Jade said ignoring her and grabbing a monster from the fridge.

"Yeah well I came home is that a problem for you?" Her mom asked as she got up from the recliner and started walking towards Jade.

"No I just...was caught off guard is all" Jade said setting down the drink.

"No, what is it?!, didn't want me here huh?!" Her mom asked as she pushed Jade against the wall making her hit her head against a cabinet.

"Ow mom what the fuck!?" Jade yelled

"Oh did that hurt?" She said as she punched her in the eye.

Jades head smacked against the cabinet harder and she covered her eye wincing in pain.

"Take your ass in your room I don't want to see you for the rest of the night you pathetic bitch" her mother said grabbing another beer from the fridge

She just stared at her mom.

"Did I fucking stutter?!" Her mother said backhanding her across the face making Jade fall to the ground.

"Pathetic" her mom scoffed kicking her in the rib cage as she walked away and into her room.

Jade got up slowly and ran to her room locking the door behind her.

She fell to the floor and began to sob quietly covering her mouth to make sure her mom didn't hear.

She waited there for an hour before attempting to exit her room, she looked for her mom but couldn't seem to find her.

"Thank God she must've left again" she said as she noticed her mom's car was gone.

She looked at her table next to the couch noticing the crushed pills, razor blade and rolled up dollar bill next to it.

She sighed grabbing the monster she had tried to drink earlier and downed the whole thing.

She walked back to her room and locked the door, she grabbed a razor blade she had underneath her bed, taking off her jeans and putting on shorts.

She stared at her thigh, cuts littered her skin some old some new, she sucked in a breath letting her mind control her movements, before she even realized it she made 8 new slashes across her skin, she cried as she cleaned up and put on a pair of sweatpants and a sweater.