The story of Zelda Collis

Chapter 1 , THE COLDNESS

"Guilt can sometimes overpower any other emotions"

"I feel cold."
"My room feels so cold."

This slight breeze feels like it is the coldest wind of the season or ...it's feeling like that.

Coldness and chilling, that's the only feeling I was ever able to feel. I have seen people crying and shedding tears. But I could never recover a memory of me where I was shedding tears. I was never able to distinguish between sadness to any other feelings. All I could ever feel was coldness...
Life of 19 years, just a small period , but lot of things I have seen and did remembring it makes me chill.

When I am talking about the cold , it's not the coldness of body , but the kind of chill that pierce the heart, bleeding every second without a wound and killing me in all possible way without even touching me.

"Darling" Male voice from my side addressed me.
"Are you alright, you look so worried"
It was my dad talking to me.

"Yes Dad, but we both being here feels wrong"

"Thats just your feeling. What we are doing is right. Its meant to be done for the sake of truth"         
"You dont believe me ,do you"

"No Dad, I trust you, I will do anything for you. But....."

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" Miss Collis, Mr. John is asking for you"
The lady in formals informed me.

"I will be there in a moment"  I replied to her.
She is the clerk in Mr. Johns office.

"Zelda...Good morning, you don't look so warm."
Mr John is acting like he cares about me.

"Have you ever seen me warm....'ADVOCATE' .
Why did you called me, is the case going well."

"That's what I wanted to talk about. We cannot continue with the case. There is no proof that your father's accident was an attempt to murder, ie, Mr. Mark Williams  DEATH was a SUICIDE."

It was another chill. My body weakened. My dad, he told me to reopen the case and now they want to close the case like that. No, it's not true. He will never do that. He loved me. He could never kill himself.

                                 "NO"
I murmured, but they could hear me.

"He could never kill himself. You dont want to find the truth about my dad. You all are liars. "

"Ms. Collis , this is truth whatever you believe is, the truth is your dad suicided. His postmartum report showed that he was taking high dosed drugs for his mental conditions."

"But sir, someone could have forcefully given them the drugs to kill him"

"Ma'am, during the searching we found out that he was a mentally sick patient and was taking drugs regularly. The prescriptions and medical document shows that"

"You all are liars. Let me see what i can do".

I wanted to strangle them all with my hands. Liars, advocates , bitches! It was my dad who died . I walked out of that room chillingly, I slam closed the door and went to my home. I will show them what I can do about this.

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(Later that day, Zelda went to home. She was stressed and cold. She cannot convince herself that her dad suicided. She will never believe that.)

I stared my self at the bathroom mirror. I can still feel the cold blood in me running through my veins. The tap water is still flowing. I thought how my dad feel about it.

"You looked stressed darling", It was my dad  standing by the door. He dont look pleasent now. He is angry ,he looks furious .

"What you did this morning is not you my dear."
He sound disappointed.
"You heard what they talked about me. Do you think it is true. Do you think I killed myself."

With each of his words he came near me. I also moved back as he was coming closer. There was no more place to move behind me. I touched the ice cold wall behind me. Dad was standing just in front of me. Looking to my eyes with anger and fury, His hand raised to my neck trying to strangle me. 
He stoped and moved away from me with his head bowed.

"Dad" I called him with a strangled voice.

"I am sorry my dear, I don't know what's going on with me. I thought you could help me from this suffering. That day, I was driving for you. For you only ... and ... I died. If it was not for you I still could have been here."

He looks really disappointed and sad. I hate seeing him like this.

"Dad, I am sorry. I knew this happened because of me. I will find a way to help you. I promise . I am your daughter. You are the only person I ever loved. You are the only  person I miss. I will help you at any cost"

" Yes, you are my daughter and you love me. I know that and I love you more than anything. But now you DISAPPOINTED ME"
"But you can change it. One more chance. But the real you , that old Zelda I knew as my daughter want to do this. We should let a few of those people know how it feels to lose someone you love.