I'll Take What I Want From Your Heart (Gerard Way Fanfiction)

Knock, Knock. Who's there? Sadness.

Waking up this morning was like waking up hungover. I felt like I couldn't remember anything from last night, but there is nothing I don't remember. The dream is haunting me already. Maybe I drank more vodka than I thought..

Gerard was at his desk, more than likely drawing, with coffee close to reach.

"What time is it?" I ask him groggily.

"It's 1:30. I thought I should let you sleep." He sat next to me with a mug of coffee. "And I made you coffee." I grabbed the mug and thanked him. This could possibly make me feel better.

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After a rough hour, Kay and I went home. On the drive, I contemplated telling her my dreams and how I feel, but I couldn't. I think only one person knows how to help me with this.

I showered and changed to try and wake myself more, but it was no help. I'm wide awake but I feel dead. But, I trudge outside anyway because I want to see the one person I have missed for so long.

The diner isn't far from the house, so I just walk. It's enlightening to feel a nice breeze with no traffic going by, no people to awkwardly walk past either. The sensation is cut short at the realization that I have approached the diner doors.

Inside, nothing has changed and he is wiping the counter before our eyes lock. I ran like a little girl to him, where his broad frame caught me. The tears just ran down.

He took me to the break room type place next to the kitchen.

"Austin, I'm gonna get worse again. I can feel it slowly swallowing me like it has never happened before." Austin is the one person I should've always had in my life. He is the father of Kayleigh and the reason I call her my step sister is because my mom and him got very close but decided not to marry. His girlfriend left him, but it wasn't a bad break up or anything. They both agreed it was best, but I don't know the whole story.

"Why does sadness come out of nowhere? Especially when you feel the happiest you have in so long?" My sobbing was uncontrollable and I couldn't look into his eyes. I was ashamed.

His large arms hugged me tightly, but his warmth didn't calm my shivers.

"Sh, calm down, Vy. You know it's gonna be okay. You're the strongest person I know. Everybody has their problems and we either learn to get over them and do so, or give up completely. You've never given up. You being alive is proof, so even you can see it." I was repeating his words in my head as he said them. He has the truest words. It's not that it's hard to listen to him, it's just that the most annoying people to me are the ones that don't listen. I'm definitely not talking about obedience particularly, but people that don't listen to other's words are choosing to not learn or understand anything.

I didn't even realize I had stopped crying.

"Navy, you're going to be alright, and if you ever feel like you're not, come see me." I had him. He was my rock. He has been for so long.

"I love you, dad." I meant these words. He was more of a dad than my bastard of a father ever was.

He smiled very proudly in a sweet way, not at all conceded.

"I've missed you, and I'm sorry I haven't seen you in a while." We caught up on so much after that and thankfully his boss didn't mind.

On my walk back to my house, all I could think of was how easily words can calm me down. Talking to someone has always made me feel better. I really need to make sure Mikey is doing alright..

I open my front door to Kayleigh on the couch wearing a pretty, revealing, dress and heavy makeup.

As soon as she saw me, she pounced up and grabbed my arm, basically dragging me upstairs. "Let's get you ready. I'm taking you out, and you're gonna have fun."

So, I got ready..