YN'S POV
I walk through my door angrily opening my lock and Odell trails behind and i stop and turn to look at him as he doesn't seem phased and keeps walking towards me and i stop him by placing my hand on his chest.
" I'm talking to you yn, who the fuck is Matt and why the fuck is he taking MY son to the parks huh " he blares out as he slaps my hand off his chest and moves closer to me and i step back.
" Odell Cornelius beckham jr you will NOT use that tone with me in my own house and as far as who Matt is goes that is none of your goddamn business " i respond walking into my kitchen and placing the groceries on the kitchen island.
" DO-Don't fucking say that to me, if you fuckin his white boy ass i don't give a shit but i want him away from my son, he out here fathering my kid like he ain't got no father and oh he has a VERY present father, keep your relationship with Matty boy away from my son and this is the last time i tell your ass that " he whisper yells trying to keep his voice down so he doesn't startle kai.
" Absolutely nobody said you were not a present father odell ok, and what is wrong with Matt taking Kai to the park, he wanted to go so he took him " i lean on the island and he sits himself down and rubs his face with his big hands and lets out a massive sigh.
" i have to deal with the fact that this Matt guy is fucking you and that alone is a very hard pill to swallow, i need more time adjusting to him being part of Kai's life yn alright " he gently says staring obliviously outside the kitchen window at Kai playing with my dog Blu.
" he's not fucking me and i somehow don't see why I'm explaining myself to you but still, our divorce isn't finalized yet so practically I'm still a married woman so I'm going to behave like one and Matt is his manny i didn't want to tell you because you'd think that I'm too consumed with my artwork and you'd suggest that he stay with you and i don't want that " i clear my throat and he shakes his head.
" you were an amazing wife yn and i definitely don't doubt your capabilities of taking care of our son but if it's too stressful, i don't mind taking him for a week or two "
" Yea, You're right i guess I'll pack his bag" i say walking past him and he stops me by grabbing my arm and i turn back to look at him only to be met by the mere inch space between us and my heart starts racing as my eyes land on his tempting lips.
" you don't have to pack now imma come by tomorrow and pick him up " he softly says as his hot minty breath fans over me and i look up at him meeting his eyes already plastered on my lips.
And suddenly everything goes quiet and the only thing my mind can seem to focus on is his beautiful face and the sexy weed and expensive cologne mixture smell radiating off his body and how his tongue his swiftly moving so poisely against his pink lips.
" Mama Blu popped my ba-" we both snap out of the trance that captured our attention and he let's go of my arm and i move back creating distance between us and collect myself as Odell clears his throat and walks besides me to our son who had a smile on his face that quickly went away.
" Oh papi sorry about your ball my little love" i say kissing his nose and his cheeks, Odell bends down and takes the ball.
" I'm gonna get you another ball ok bud as many balls as you want don't worry" he picks him up and shakes him around making him laugh.
We might have not been good at marriage but we're doing well at parenting.
LATER THAT NIGHT
" Teeth are brushed i hope, p-jays are on and all that's left is for me to give you your good night kisses" i say attacking my 5 year old sons beautiful face with kisses and i back away when i notice that he's not laughing not even a small giggle, nothing.
" what's wrong papi " i ask as i look at his sad face.
" I'm just mad at myself " he says and i hop on his bed and hold him close to my chest.
" what happened my love " i ask as i look at his head turn up to look at me from his resting state.
" if i didn't walk in with my ball, you and daddy would have kissed and we would have been a family again but now we can't and it's all my fault " he says as his eyes get clouded by threatening tears and i wipe his tears and kiss his forehead as my heart breaks.
" no, no peach it's not your fault ok it's never going to be your fault don't you ever say that ever again daddy and i not being together is not your fault ok bub and know that daddy and I will always be here for you and love you no matter what, no matter the circumstance " i reassure him and he nods his head.
" mama" he calls out and i hum in response.
" you don't love daddy anymore do you" he asks and i sigh.
" papi ill always love your father because he gave me you and that's always going to mea-" he interrupts me.
" no mama i mean love him for him not for me " he looks at me with his big brown eyes, he looks so much like his father it's insane.
" papi, your father will always have a special place in my heart forever ok, now stop this and go to bed, you excited to go to daddy's tomorrow " i change the subject as i get off his bed and tuck him in and he nods his head.
" goodnight my love " i say kissing his cheeks.
" goodnight mama i love you ".
" i love you too my handsome prince " i turn on his night light and close his door and i make my way down the hall only to find myself back to my habits of playing with the ring on my finger when I'm stressed.
I look down at my finger and my heart aches at the thought of the day i have to take it off forever, to be honest i still love Odell with every fibre in my body but i think we were too young when we got married and we never got to grow individually and now it's taking a toll over us.
Maybe in another life, another universe we made it work but heaven knows what's next for us.
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