ODELL'S POV
I drive up to what use to be our family home knocking on the door like a madman, i realized after i left the house earlier that I'm making the biggest mistake of my goddamn life, i chose my job, money and fame over my family, it isn't because we were growing into different places or into different people.
I'd know that because even though yn and i live in different places a nigga ain't done no growing since I've left and i feel like i find myself more when I'm around her, yn is my home, she's my world fuck man the woman feels more natural to me then my own goddamn heartbeat and i ain't losing her over some stupid ass abandonment issues.
Yn is my wife and she's always gonna be my wife and imma make sure she knows that, I've been blind and stupid, i thought that maybe we needed a divorce to understand if we really need eachother or not but truly it's because I'm scared, she's made me feel things that scare me man but fuck i hate waking up to an empty bed and i know what you may think :
Just get a girl to pass time but listen nigga ain't no woman is ever gonna have me fully while yn still exists, yn even though we're temporary over she's still the reason i wake up everyday, her and my son are the only people I'm fighting for.
I want my family back, I'm getting my house back in order.
She opens the door in her red silk night gown and all the words escape me, fuck she's gorgeous " odell" she questions confused as to why I'm here " fuck it" i whisper and i grab her face kissing her, shit i missed these soft lips and how her body fits in my hands.
YN'S POV
I got lost in his soft lips, god i missed kissing him, he moves his hands to my ass as he lifts up my night gown grabbing my ass cheek making me moan as he slips his tongue inside my mouth and i immediately snap back pushing him, out of breath.
" No, no " I state turning around not wanting to look at him as i catch my breath " i love you " he says and i feel tears immediately burn at the back of eyes.
" stop " was all i could say as i place a hand on my chest turning around to look at him as his beautiful eyes meet mine " yo-you said you wanted a divorce because we got married too young and that we never grew individually and that broke my heart it really fucking did but i had to understand and let go but now you're here, here kissing me and - and you're just argghh you're confusing me " i breath out.
" i want you yn " he states coming closer and i back away " you had me " i argue " i know ma and i messed it up like i always do but i promise imma be open with you this time, i want to give you all of me, fully please stay with me i don't wanna let go, i was scared but now i ain't i want my wife back and son back, fuck i want my family back " he says and i shake my head as the tears fall out my eyes sliding down my cheeks and i swallow hard.
" you'll hurt me " i say with my eyes closed and next thing i know i could smell that scent, that goddamn scent that drives me crazy, he's close " I'll worship you " he states whispering in my ear as i try to hold myself together, right now it wasn't about me only, it was about kai i don't want him to confuse Kai he's just a baby and i don't want him to go through that just incase Odell changes his mind again.
" Kai Odell, What about Kai " i ask pushing him slightly as i open my eyes " what about him" he says and i scoff " you'll break his heart too, i don't want you to break my babies heart, you know he already thinks it's his fault we broke up and if we get back together and fix our marriage only for you to wake up one day and decide you can't do it anymore leaving me heartbroken again and him a wreck i can't have that he's just a baby ".
" Firstly he's my baby too, i love Kai and you more than anything else and I'm so sorry it took a nigga so long to realize what he had, i wanna be there to wake him up everyday, to take him to school and fetch him and play football with him, watch how to train a dragon for the billionth time i don't care what it is it's the together part that matters, i don't want Kai to grow up in separate homes, i don't want him to have two Christmas's, i want him to have one Christmas with his moms and his pops and his dog, i know i fucked up ma i know and I'm trying baby i am, i just NEED you and Kai hell even blu at this point, please don't sign those papers " he says and for the first time in a long time i was staring at the man i fell in love with.
" you really want this " i ask " more than anything " he admits " I'm scared Odell what if you decide you don't want this anymore " i truly don't want to let him in if he's not fully committed to us and our family, i love Odell more than anything in the earth and that's not healthy because he has the power to make me happy and break my heart all at once and i don't know what i would do if it came to that again.
" look at me, i know you're scared, I'm scared too but you're better than me because you stayed you wanted to figure it out and i chickened out but baby the best love is the kind that awakens the soul and hungers us into reaching for more, the kinda shit that plants a flame in our hearts and brings chaos to our minds and that's what you've given me, so you know what? fuck I'm still scared but this time let's be scared together, i prefer to sail the heaviest stormy seas with you then to sail calm seas with any other woman, you keep me on my toes, challenge me but only for the better and there's nothing more i want than to fight with you, fight for you, whatever it is that has you in it I'd gladly fall face first into the fire for it because for you ma I'd scar myself and at first it scared me so i ran but now it fuels me so I'm here, giving you all of me hoping, begging that you'll take me back " i watched a tears breamed slowly in his eyes.
" i don't know " I say with uncertainty " if you look at me and tell me to go, I'll go but if you want me stay I'll oblige with full commitment, i mean fuck you got me all sentimental and shit " he says and i chuckle taking a deep breath in and let out a shaky one.
This was surprising to me because he really didn't like showing much emotion even though he jokes around but sentimental odell was barely showed and to see him here in front of me, vulnerable just made me want him even more and next thing i knew our clothes were scattered all over our bedroom floor and i was sleeping on his chest. MY MAN'S CHEST, MY HUSBAND'S CHEST.
I can't say much but you know what I'd scar myself for Jr too and it's fine I'll jump off this cliff with him because at the end of the day...
IT'S THE TOGETHER PART THAT MATTERS.
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YN'S POV
" Mommy when is daddy gonna pick me up " Kai asks completely distracted with his Legos, smashing his toys together while making fighting noises.
" he doesn't have to papi " I say kissing the top of his head and he frowns as he walks over to his breakfast " but why " he asks and just then odell comes down stairs " good morning family " he greets.
Kai turns around and gasps running to hug him excitedly as Odell picks him up and gives him a kiss on his forehead " wait daddy why you in your pj's " he asks " remember what i told you on your birthday " Odell says walking towards me with Kai still in his arms.
" that you'd fix it " kai says playing with odell's Chain " i fixed it " Odell admits and I furrow my brows wondering what they're talking about, Kai's head raises as he smiles big looking at me and then his dad three times " you FIXED it " he asks jumping in Odells arms as he nods his head.
" i don't believe you " kai says and Odell chuckles walking towards me and lifts my chin up kissing me and Kai screams in joy " Again" he says and Odell kisses me again and I blush, " Thank you for keeping your promise daddy " he says hugging odell's neck.
" i love you mommy and you daddy" he says hugging both of us " but mostly you god, thank you for answering my prayers big guy " kai looks up and smiles and I look at Odell mouthing I love you and he mouths it back.
I FINALLY HAVE BOTH MY FAVORITE BOYS IN MY ARMS AGAIN.
Turns out it's in this universe that we work out and i wouldn't have it any other way.
I hope this was good
I felt like i was writing a hopeless romantic novel there for a sec
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I love you all so so much.
Bye my loves.
