♡ You Were My Beautiful Mistake ♡

♡ Happy Birthday Helen & Goodbye Mom ♡ - Chapter IV ♥

Wednesday, 25th April 2012                                                                     9am.

Dear Diary,

I promised my self to be strong and happy but how can I be happy when life is being so rude and unfair with me and my little brother. I promised my eyes, I'll never let another tear fall from them, but how can I help myself when I'm constantly losing people I love the most, no actually the people I've been living for. What has my little brother done? What are we paying for? Helen's birthday is one of the most painful day of my life. I lost my adorable mom today. I feel someone took a part of my body. My dad is not even willing to come to see my mom's dead body. Harold is broken, I'm unable to mend him. I'm somehow trying to be stronger, but I'm hopeless. I feel my life is worthless. I feel my mind is slowly slipping away from me, but I can't show it. Everybody told me, time will cure it, but time just added to my pains, everybody says it gets better, but when? Nothing changed for me. No matter how much pains life makes me go through, I'll bare it. I've no one in this world but just three people. My adorable brother, Harold. My love boy, Jason. My bitch, Helen. I'm going to stay strong for them. They stood for me, I won't let them down. I'll stand for them. My mom died because of the same problem, Lung cancer.

If I narrate from the starting, then. It was 24th April 5am in the morning. Mom wasn't feeling well, but she still insisted me to go out with my friends and arrange a surprise party for Helen. Harold said he has his football match, and he had to go too. I was worried about mom, but she pretended that she's okay. I left for Helen's birthday. Jason was already waiting out for me, we went to check out a few places to celebrate her birthday, finally we decided one. Jason and I did all the work, from cake to decoration to theme to inviting everybody. It was 6pm. We were done with everything, we were just sitting idle and then Jason came close to me and kissed me. He told he loves me, and he wants me to be his girlfriend, to be with him everytime, everywhere, every minute, every second. My eyes were full of tears, I hugged him, he hugged me back, he was warm, I felt comfortable. I told him I'm not going to leave him at any cost, no matter how hard it is to make him stay, but I won't leave him. I felt this day would be one of the most important and happiest day of my life. But who knew it would turn out to be so bad. Well, after all that, Jason told me that everything we had to do is over, so now I'm his property and he asked me out for dinner so that he can introduce the love of his life to all his friends. I wanted to change my clothes and look fresh but Jason being Jason didn't allow me to do so. He said, I've to go with him, like I'm, I don't have to look fresh at all. As everything was happening his way, I demanded him to click some pictures with me. We took mirror images, which had Jason kissing me on my cheeks, Jason holding my hands, and we took more than ten pictures. 

After that at around 9pm we went to a hotel for dinner. I met three of his friends, one was Sam. Who was blonde but friendly. One was Christopher, who was silent but had a smiling face, and one was Mary. We had dinner and drinks with them which was enjoyable. At around 11.30 we left. After I sat in the car, once again, Jason kissed me on my lips, whenever I'm with him. I feel special. I feel loved. Then he asked me to call up Helen and call her at our college. I did whatever my boss asked me to do. At 11:45, we were at the college and Helen was there too. We tied a piece of cloth on Helen eyes, at exactly 11:55, we were at the party place. Everything was right at its place. We even called up Audrey, and told him that Helen likes her, he happily admitted that he has a crush on Helen too, and that made Helen's birthday really special. At exact 12am, we all were there, Jason, Audrey, Sam, Mary, Christopher, some good friends from College and me.

I took the cloth out of Helen's eyes and we sang a song for Helen. Helen had tears in her eyes, she felt really happy. She hugged me in excitement. We celebrated her birthday and enjoyed it thoroughly. After sometime everybody went, Audrey texted me to get out of here too, so I hugged Helen, wished her , Jason wished her too and we went out, but we were secretly watching everything happening inside from the window. We saw, Audrey going on his knees with a red rose and proposing Helen, Helen went all red. Helen was blushing and yes finally asked Audrey to stand up and they hugged. Jason & I were laughing like hell, and then suddenly my cell beeped, it was Harold. I picked up the call, Harold was crying. I was worried after a minute or so, Harold told me that mom wasn't waking up, he heard her screaming, when he ran into her room, he saw her lying on the floor. I started crying too, Jason with me drove the car as fast as he could and took mom to the hospital. The doctor with a sad face told me that mom died cause of Lung Cancer and they couldn't do anything to save her. I was broken. Jason was with me all the time. He called up Helen, and asked her to take care of Harold. 

To be exact, this is how Jason consoled me - 'Keira, we all have our fixed times. We can't live forever. Your mom had to go, don't be sad baby ,instead give her a happy farewell, you've me & what about Harold? You've to take care of him. Please don't cry, for me. Who'll make me strong if you'll cry?' And then I finally hugged him, we went to bury my mom's body. After that, Jason dropped Harold and me at our house, kissed me on forehead and told me that I've to stay strong no matter what.

Helen was with us too, she told me that she'll be there whenever we need her, I told her to go and take some rest. After that, I hugged Harold, kissed him on his forehead, wiped his tears and asked him to sleep, he went to sleep.

Well, I've lost a few, and met a few. But no one can ever replace my mom, but I'll always be thankful to Helen & Jason for being there with me at every moment of my life and the hardest part of my life.

& Like I promised to my self, now I'm promising to my mom that I'll be strong and happy. 

You'll always be alive in my heart mom.

xoxo.