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Always by Daniel Caesar blasted out of Temi's speaker as Temi and Soraya drove through the streets of London, Temi had picked Soraya up after she had finished school since it was the last day of term, Temi had volunteered to do the Easter food shop and she also had to pick up some items she had for a shoot tomorrow, Zayvier had an away game Temi couldn't attend so she decided to let Soraya tag along with her.
"Tee"Soraya called for the second time.
"Sorry" Temi apologised as she broke her deep thought.
"It's ok. But I was saying would you help me with an outfit?" Soraya asked looking up from her phone.
"Of course Babe. Occasion?".
"Err it's Kam's birthday in like 3 weeks, he's having an AP which I don't think imma go to but he's asked me to go to dinner with his family." She said shyly.
"Look at you" Temi smiled."But why you not going to the AP?" Temi asked turning to face Soraya as they approached a red light.
"Even though we talked about it and all his friends know about us I'm not really friends with people from his crowd and only like two or three of my friends are going."she shrugged.
"Do you not like his friends or?"
"No there's nothing wrong with them they are actually quite nice I just don't know them"she explained hesitantly.
"If they are nice, why not go to the AP?"Temi questioned feeling like Soraya was telling half the truth.
"I honestly don't know" she huffed after a minute of silence."I don't want to sound dramatic or juvenile but I think I have commitment issues"she whispered.
"Do you mind elaborating?"Temi said confused.
" I like Kamran, like a lot , he's asked me to be his girlfriend twice now and I've said no, I don't know why though. I feel like if his friends get used to me being around or I form a bond it'll be weird at school when we end, at first I didn't want to even go to dinner with his family but at least I won't have to see them every day and I know it's bad to think like this but I can't not think this won't end good so I'd rather not start"she ranted.
"So why are you talking to him in the first place if you don't want it to go anywhere?" Temi asked still kind of puzzled.
"Kam's the first boy I've ever talked to, I really do like him, more than I thought I would, I didn't go into this expecting a relationship though. I just thought that talking stages are just so short lived at my age that I just expected it to end quickly and it hasn't"
"Surely that's a good thing though? You can't compare yourself to other people, move at your own pace, but ensure that's communicated, from what I understand Kamran is willing to wait for you but don't lead him on if you truly don't want anything from it, but I personally think you don't have commitment issues you just came into it with the wrong mind set. What I've learned from my first and only relationship is that you can't go into it with expectations, standards yes but those expectations will set you up for failure and that's what your doing, you say you like Kamran so why aren't you with him, even though your young it doesn't make your relationships any less insignificant than your parents or mine and Zay's we are all just learning at the end of the day just at different stages in our life's " Temi shrugged, she understood where Soraya was coming from, as she remembered feeling a similar way before Zay she felt that relationship culture in this day and age was so blurry, when you hear more about the bad than the good it kind of makes you wonder if it's worth it or if it's going to work out, but she also learnt if you think like that your setting yourself up for failure.
