just too selfish

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Today I looked in the mirror
My mind went off,
Why can't I be meaner?
Or am I already mean enough?

Noone complains
But they surely think
That I'm the worst
Or that I stink

Why do I ponder
About what I'll have for lunch
When I don't even wonder
If I deserve a punch

I call myself nice
I call myself pretty
But what if I'm just a lice
And to everyone's pity

I'm so selfish
I'm so dumb
I'm so childish
To everything so numb

I'm so hartless

Hurting people
I'm so thoughtless
Treating everyone like a beetle

They must have been suffering
From all of the pain
I wouldn't be surprised
If they'd call me insane

I'm sure I can change,
but will I really?
Or is it out of range
It smells like the beautiful poisonous lily

I should just vanish!
Yes! that would be fine!
I'm sure I'd greatly astonish
Even the pure sunshine

So I went to a bridge
And said my goodbye
At that moment
I started to cry

Loosing my courage
To make my end
So decided to extend
My life, already hellish

But in my heart it left a dent

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