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terrified

"annie!" i said shaking her, "what do you want troy, it's the middle of the night." she said dismissing me. "i can't find abed!" when i said this she noticed i was crying, "shit! what do you mean you can't find him?" she asked grabbing my hand trying to calm me down. "i woke up with a bad feeling in my stomach so i went to check his bed and he wasn't there", "i checked around the entire apartment, washer, dryer, closets, i even ran threw all the halls of the apartment, HE'S NO WHERE" i sobbed, "oh no, um have you called him?" she asked standing up, "oh wait let me do that- NO SHIT I CALLED HIM!" i screamed, "i'm sorry, i shouldn't have yelled i'm just really scared."
"yeah i get it, let's call the group and meet up in the room okay." she suggested walking me out to the living room.

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while britta and shirley tried to calm me down, annie explained the situation to jeff, duncan, and hickey. i was sitting on the couch sending text after text to abed,

abed -troy                                                 delivered
where are you -troy.                             delivered
abed please i'm freaking out! -troy     delivered
abed -troy                                                 delivered
can you please respond? -troy             delivered   are you okay? -troy                               delivered
please abed i'm losing my mind
are you okay please come to the
study room we're all here waiting
for you -troy                                                      read

"HE READ A TEXT" i yelled, standing up and running to annie.
"OMG IS HE OKAY" annie asked looking at my phone,
"i'm not sure he didn't respond.", "wait he's typing!" i said as everyone gathered around my phone to read his response,
"holy shit troy that's a lot of messages!" jeff said eyes wide,
"yeah that not even including my calls." i responded showing him my call history,
"FORTY EIGHT-FORTY EIGHT MISSED CALLS!" he yelled.
"calm down jeff, his... best friend? is missi-" i cut annie off,
"shut up, also why'd you say it like that he IS my best friend" i asked turning to annie,
"oh you know, um- you and him are... close, and sometimes we wonder if you are, just you know... friends." annie explained,
"I THOUGHT I TOLD YALL TO DROP THAT, WE ARENT DATING!" i yelled. annie was about to talk when i cut her off, "he texted"

i'm okay troy, i'll explain when i get to the study room, i'll be there in about 20 minutes. sorry i disappeared. -abed

THANK GOD HES OKAY, i collapsed onto the floor sobbing in relief, i felt like i could finally breath. the rest of the group sat down but i couldnt, i paced back and forth through the study room checking my watch every couple seconds. when he finally walked in i ran up to him, i cried into his sweatshirt holding on to him tightly as if he would disappear if i didn't.
"WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU ABED, TROY WAS TERRIFIED!" jeff yelled standing up and walking closer to him, i was still holding on to him like he was my lifeline,
"i'm sorry, i shouldn't have run off. i just needed some space away from everything." he explained. at that i started crying harder, did he need space from me? he started to draw circles on my back to calm me down, like what i do during his panic attacks.
"i was overwhelmed, i had just read an article that one of my favorite shows was going off the air, i needed to step outside so i went for a walk, about halfway through my walk i realized i was lost." he said after he calmed me down,
"well that doesn't explain why you wouldn't answer any of us." jeff pointed out, "my phone was on silent." abed said monotone.
"i'm glad your back, and sorry i got your sweatshirt wet." i said with a sad laugh wiping my eyes, at that point i had stopped hugging him and just held onto his sleeve, because he was the only thing keeping me calm. "it's fine." he said.
"can i talk to you?" he asked taking my hand. i nodded and we walked into a different study room. "i love you troy. i wasn't honest with the group about why i ran off but i have to be with you, i was thinking about how i felt and knew you wouldn't feel the same. i thought you were getting sick of me and you didn't care and that was too much to take so i ran off, but when i finally opened my phone and saw all the calls and texts i realized that you did care." he said looking slightly embarrassed,
"abed, i care about you so much, i could never be sick of you, and i do feel that way, i do love you. i love you with my whole heart and i can't imagine a world without you." i said cupping his cheek smiling,
"i love you" i whispered one more time barely audible as i leaned in and kissed him. his hand gripped my shirt as he pulled me in closing the space between us.
i love him.
i love abed nadir.