PICK YOUR POISON

EIGHT

TOM KAULITZ

i left the girl twitching on the bed as i zipped my pants and closed the door. no way in hell would i stay here with her. (crazy asf💀)

i grabbed my keys and left the house. i made sure to wrote her a lovely note

"get out of my house before im back"

so heartwarming

just driving around the city having no clue where im going. i pulled up next to a black truck. i groaned and grabbed my phone from my back pocket.

im coming in.

i set the phone down and rubbed my hand over my face.

ding

what? youre here?

gosh i hate her. why do i keep lying to myself? much less lie to her.

she cant see the softer side of me. or people will know for sure.

its not a request.
im coming in.

i stepped foot outside of my car and twirled my keys around my finger. i slammed the door and locked it. holding up my jeans, i walked up to her front door. and because im polite, i rang the doorbell awaiting an answer.

laughter was heard from the other side until the door opened. "oh." her sister said to me looking at me disgustedly. "what a nice greeting hm?" i said and tilted my head

i slightly shoved her aside with my hand and walked in when she moved. "okay first, do not think of pulling the shit you just did again. second, this is my house. you do shit when youre told" she states slamming the door.

"and who are you to boss me around?" i glared at her and half jogged up the stairs. i heard slight music coning from a room. i went towards it and knocked twice

"yes?" i heard her. the one who drives me crazy. the one who makes me question if my harshness is too much. the one whose been consuming my thoughts since ive noticed her on social media.

that first facebook post i saw of her and melanie together. that wouldve been in 2004.

DECEMBER 16 2004
"hey tom" bill walked into the room unannounced, like bill always does. "what?" stressed, i replied anyways. im very stressed over the writings and note placements for a song were working on. "look at this girl" he showed me his laptop, there was a picture of 2 girls. one with blonde highlights, and the other just with black hair. "which one?" i asked knowing damn well i dont care for anyone that isnt that— attractive— women.
"the one with highlights" he pointed her out and smiled. "where was this taken?" i asked referring to the background.
"oh uhh... in the US" his smile drops. "what if we plan a move to the US?" i smirked at him and his smile returned. "just the band?" he asked his eyebrow raising.
"with mom of course" i rolled my eyes at him as i thought of the black haired girl..

i saved nearly all of her photos. i dont give two fucks if thats creepy. thats what happens when you find someone worth so much pain.

i opened the door slightly and marched in. i sat down next to her. "oh hi tom. wheres mel?" she questioned me like this is some survey.

"downstairs" groaning, i leaned back on my hands and just looked at her. admiring her features. "what?" she sounds frustrated and she tries to hide that, but i noticed it either way.

"shes mad" i raise my eyebrow at her and she takes her finger and just scratches the back of her neck. "oh well" she sighs and rests her head against the headboard.

okay, just thinking of that scene and just a hint of sweat, and screa—

stop.

"wheres your bathroom?" i ask a bit scared of the images my own goddamn head came up with. "when you go into the hall, turn right. then its the second door on the left" she says and types something on her laptop. a different song coming on soon after that.

i couldnt hear the song before i basically bolted out of there. "geez" she murmured and typed another thing. the clicks of the laptop keyboard slowly becoming faint.

second door, on the right? my mind is completely blank at this point.

theres a slim door on the right. not enough room for a person to slip into. i open that door anyways. towels, toiletries, hair products. okay, the door next to the bathroom necessities.

boom

hooray!

i close the bathroom door and turn to the mirror. just staring at myself and questioning what i had envisioned in there was even possible to achieve. a groan escaped my mouth. and a snicker came from the other side of the door

"straight pipin it tom?" i heard melanies giggles and slight sighs from emma. "nah" i said trying to keep my guard up.

lolololololol😈😝