the daily life of an anorexic

my seventh grade year

Seventh grade what a wonderful year. Haha jokes on you. Well even though Julia found my account last May I still dieted just not as extreme. Sometimes she'd force me to eat. Id become more social almost the whole seventh grade knew me and most of the eighth grade. September 20 2013 Jack asked me out. He made me happy. A month later we broke up, but a short nine days later we got back together. Even though I was in love with Austin. He had a girlfriend. We were still best friends. Well about that crush I had on him well, ever girl had that crush. Me and Jack were almost inseparable until December 19 2013 I was in the hospital. Nope didn't attempt suicide. I had appendicitis. Yep. And the whole school knew. Only in the hospital for two days they sent me home. I missed the last day of school before winter break so my winter break was a day and a half longer. Others spent their winter break hanging out with friends and family well I spent mine in bed. Sure I lost a few pounds but me and my boyfriend lost touch. I was sleeping all day all night. So December 31 2013 I was single. And wanted to die. But new year new start. I made a diet for me to follow and I did but then Austin and his girlfriend broke up. Me and Austin talked now stop. Until he asked my best friend Megan out. I hated them both. Austin said he didn't even like Megan and said she was a slut! They broke up after like a week of "dating". Austin Megan and Me were all single. Austin and I became closer and closer. We both became popular later that year. Everyone would always ask our friends if we were dating. Nope sad life I know. Last week of school Austin me and some friends went downtown. Ava convinced that I liked Matt and almost told Matt I liked him. Then I told her I liked Austin. Big mistake. She told the whole school. Everyone knew but me! Fml. People started walking up to me "I know who you like" constantly. I found out who told everyone and I walked right up to Ava and we got in a fight. Oops. Summer came and me and Austin were even closer! I don't know how that was possible but it was. My anorexia became me. I had more online ana friends than I had real friends. I dropped 15 pounds in the month of June. On my birthday July 10 I told Austin I wasn't going to be at that school, that I was switching. I was crying when he was telling me he was going to miss me more than he has ever missed anyone. Then, he asked me out. Dating one of the hottest guys in school, me Noel, dating Austin. I was in shock. July 13-17 2014 I was in Florida on a mission project with my cousins. Then we went to disney world. I gain almost all the weight back. My dad started calling me fat. I barely would get out of bed. Wishing I was dead because being dead would be better then being me, right? I finally saw Austin for the first time in summer August 17. He was kinda bad Boyfriend. We talked like once a week and only saw each other like 3 times in the four months we were dating. School was about to start. Tennis already started. My day would go, wake up, go to tennis ,come home, sleep, wake up for dinner, sleep, repeat. Then school started.