The Ties that Bind [ON-GOING]

8

Favourite cousin is calling....

Nagising ako sa ingay nang phone ko. Someone is calling. Kinakapa-kapa ko ang higaan para hagilapin ang phone na kanina pa maingay. Nang hindi ko mahanap kaagad kung binuksan ang aking mata. Pag buklas ko nang comforter nakita ko nasa may paahan ko na ito.

Gaano ba ako kalikot matulog at napunta 'to sa paahan ko?

When I saw the caller I immediately answered the call. Ano bang sadya nito ba't ang agang nambulabog nang tulog. Jusko alas syete palang. Hindi ko naman oras nang gising 'to.

"Hello goodmorning..." I said in my morning voice. Bumalik ako sa pag higa at tinaklob uli ang kumot. Handang handa sa pag balik nangtulog.

"Ang tagal mong sagutin." oh bad mood kaagad. Ang aga-agang bungad.

"Goodmorning sayo huh."I said in a sarcastic way.

"Goodmorning! Anyway sorry for interrupting your sleep. I did call you for a good news." her mood switches so fast.

"Ano ba 'yan at kay aga mo akong ginising?" tanong ko. Nakapikit na uli aking mata at handa nang matulog pabalik. Gusto ko bumawi nang maraming tulog dahil sobra akong napagod sa buhay ko.

"Mom said that you'll be going later for welcoming christmas. She wants you to be there. You know naman hindi sanay si mommy na kulang tayo sa christmas celebration kasi minsan nalang tayo magkasama-sama. She wants us to celebrate together. Imperial, Mier, Neccosia and Cordova family should be all present."

Napamulat ako sa narinig. Oh I forget. This like a family tradition that lolo and lola wish for us to bring it until in generation of our own family. This is the way to foster positive family environment and improve family communication.

Duh gossiping is their good communication.

"Alam ba ito ni mom? Baka patayin ako no'n pag nakita. You know naman how I disrespect her amiga the last time we met." sabi ko na nakaupo na ngayon sa kama. I just said it jokingly. Sinandal ko ang ulo sa headrest nang kama at napapikit.

Naalala ko tuloy yung araw na 'yon. Ano kayang naging reaksyon nung lalaki nang malaman niyang nilayasan siya nang supposedly bride niya. Baka umiyak? And why would he cry? Baka nga napilitan lang din' yon.

"The truth is, she actually doesn't know. Mom and grandpa keep it between us. Don't worry I'm in your back. Wala nang magagawa si tita kung mismong aka at kapatid niya ang may gusto nito. Even me no, hindi ko gustong wala ka in that special day. Nakasanayan na sa family kaya hinahanap hanap ka." the sincerity in her voice melt my heart. Oh that's why I love her.

Mabuti naman no may awa pa rin sa akin 'to. Well I know her, she's not that kind of what other people think is. She might acting like nothing on her feel pain, nothing on her feel sad well that might be feeling opposite.

I know each individual has this talent of great pretenders. Kahit na na ako minsan nagagawa ko 'yan. People can pretend because they don't want other people to see their vulnerability or they don't want to feel the fear of pity. Although pretending not to be hurt might provide temporary relief to her, but for me it's essential to recognize the importance of acknowledging and addressing her emotions. You know healthy communication, both with oneself and others can lead to a more authentic and supportive emotional environment. That's why I always encourage her to open up and express her vulnerability to me, kahit sa'kin nalang no at least may napagsasabihan siya because that can help strengthen relationships and contribute to her personal growth.

"Okay copy that, I'll just prepared the things that I'll be wear later. Tell lolo for me that I miss him. Thank you kirls." Saad ko at bumangon na sa higaan.