WINE🍷 [𝕎as 𝕀 ℕever 𝔼nough]

-🔮𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 1

🎀Arabella pov:

If I had to talk about my life, I don't know where to start with!
Like should I start with my thoughts I've when I sit on the balcony, on the sofa, while showering or while eating? Or my daily happening?

I always wanted to taste mansion house
[indo-french brandy] when I was 16 years old! I remember my dad drinking it, and he kinda seemed to enjoy it, lmao!!
I had my addictions back then, I loved documentaries about serial killers. I once fell in love with Ted Bundy and later on Jeffrey Dahmer!! I loved reading novels. My favorites were by Catherine cookson!!
I did journaling. I learned playing piano and guitar too!! I had a garden in front of my house, I was fond of plucking those dry leaves. it is bizarre, I guess, but who cares?

I had never but actually did know that a 23 year old is totally a fucked up years of mine! I'm the same since 16....! !
I'm dramatic, I'm clingy sometimes cringe...!! Watching the sky, I spot a cute tiny little pretty star, it was alone and was twinkling bright..........
I want to sleep, I go to my room and make myself comfortable in those sheets..
I started thinking about on how I crave for love everytime!!!!!

I want those cuddling with my boyfriend, him fucking me past 12 and kissing me on the lips saying "you're the most beautiful person I've ever seen" Ohhh God imagining all of this makes me feel stupid!! FINE FINE I'll stop!!! It's weird having all these slut cravings.......

I convince myself saying that there's no one who kisses me good night and to I had to stop being over dramatic ..........
I don't sleep right away, I take my phone and start listening to The wizardliz podcasts!!! She's the queen for real.....
I realize I stayed up late night, not like I did everyday and today is the same too!!

It was 1 in the morning, so I toss off my phone on the night stand and sleep again..
So what does a jobless bitch like me does? I'm lucky enough I needn't sleep early, wake up early, have my breakfast on time and etccccc!!!
So yes I've been searching for jobs since a year and yet didn't find one!! I've an interview in a week and I hope it gets successful and I can be less burden to my parents........

I wake up knowing it's probably lunch time now!! I decided to rot in my bed, took my phone and started reading webtoon "Match made in hell", my friend violet enjoyed reading it so I thought of giving it a try and definitely it didn't suck, so I started reading few like "Letters on the wall" and
"Purple hyacinth".......

I always say I'm bored and yet I don't go in search of anything interesting..!! All I do I skip my breakfast, listen to music, read webtoon, wattpad, read novels for hours and eat lunch/dinner [if I'm forced to] they are my daily routine so it's boring..!! Let's wait until I get a job that distracts my ass off.........
It's 14pm right now and I come downstairs, it feels weird, like imagine staying up in your room all by yourself for hours and you finally decide to come out-
I see my dad watching his favorite series. I go over to my mom, back hug her and kiss her on the cheek who was busy making snacks for us this evening..!!!