The Grey

That weird new guy

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NOTES: Hey there! I'm a little bit nervous about posting it for so many reasons like I haven't written in a long time and also the fact that the people I'm writing about now are very reachable so I feel a little uncomfortable but let's go.
I'd like to say somethings before the reading. I talked about this on Twitter but I think I should talk about it here too:

First of all: English is not my native language and I am self-taught (and still learning). So yes, sometimes it will be too formal, sometimes there will be typos or grammatical errors, bear with me.

I also think it's important to say most of times I write angst without a happy ending. Can a happy ending happen? Of course, but never wait for it.
I also use heavy/dark themes like dru9s, v1ol3nc3, abu53, su1c1d3/h0m1c1d3, mental ilnesess in the most realistic way possible. So if you are a sensitive person or have triggers with themes like this, I would recommend not reading. I never ever romanticize these subjects so I prefer to show it in the most raw way.

I'm not into romantic novels. Will there be romance in what I write? SURE, but be ready to suffer for it.

Most of the time it takes me a LONG time to write. Why? There are some reasons:
I study in detail all the themes I use in what I am writing. As I said before, I use problematic themes that need a lot of attention to avoid being conveyed in the wrong way. And all we don't want is to see serious problems being treated with disregard or being romanticized.

I try my best to create each character uniquely. I pay a lot of attention to small details with the intention of making them memorable. Most of time I avoid using the personalities of the real people I'm writing about, and try to create a whole new personality. So if you're reading something I wrote you might think "no way that person would never do/say that" no, that real person wouldn't do/say that, but the character would. Keep in mind that they are characters.

Finally, I would like to say that I WRITE GAY THINGS +18 and I invent completely random couples that only make sense in my head (like Will Ramos and Noah Sebastian).

That's all for now and sorry for the extra long note. I use to talk a lot in the notes btw. Hope you all enjoy the first chapter and be read to cry through this story ♡

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2023

Noah took the last sip of his  whiskey but didn't let go of the glass as he set it back against the solid wood of the bar counter.  He stared at the ice ball inside the glass, shaking it to hear it clink.  He was dizzy and had his head tilted resting on his left hand fingers, his elbows were firmly on the counter.

"Should I take another drink?”

He felt blurred and his thoughts disturbed.  His face was burning, probably red enough to be seen even in the dim light of the bar.  That was the sign that he was already pushing his limits.

He raised his head, looking from side to side while brushing the strands of hair out of his eyes. He couldn't make out faces, but he could see a lot of people, which was acceptable for a Friday night.

New York City was so chaotic and Noah felt sick just remembering that he would have lived there for many more years if everything had worked well back then.  He hated that hell of people, cars and buildings, and if he had known it was like that he would never have left Richmond.