Sana is a chubby girl who has been fat since the day she was born but was always loved and occasionally bullied by her own folk still that never kept her from chasing her dreams Her weight never made her insecure not until that one day where she was...
It's been almost a month, how come she didn't text me even once, I specifically told her to text me. Is she not interested in me ? Or is she busy with someone else? Does she have anyone else in her life ? Is she gonna do what I have been through already ? This is the reason why I was not ready for marriage I have thorough trust issues after the fiasco I have been through.
I have her number too but I was skeptical what if she doesn't respond? or what if I get her number busy? What if, there impossible number of what if's. Even though I wanted to give her benefit of doubt but I couldn't. Instead of waiting anymore I pushed it out of mind. With all the preps for engagement and ring selection finally got me to the reality that tomorrow I will be engaged to her, "This looks beautiful" My sister looks at the ring in my hand! "Why did you choose sapphire?" This is a precious stone and I have a feeling that this will match her and she is going to be precious to me too. "But you have been fidgeting a lot lately about her ?"
How do you know that? "Arafath no matter how old you grow you will be my baby brother who use to cry just because I told you, you were adopted" Well you made it sound so real I had no other options. "Silly goose, it's same here as well you have no other option but place your trust on it" "It isn't easy for Sana as well she is getting married to you in an arrange marriage set up,though you guys are related somehow but she didn't knew about you a month ago,Give her time she is a woman and woman think a lot before they act or she might just feeling shy as well"
I have a thought after what my sister told, she is right! It's same for her too, things were happening so fast, may be she is as flustered as me, anyways we will be engaged by tomorrow and I will make sure to make her feel secured. But before I could contemplate anything else it was already time for my evening prayer, how can I be so ignorant why didn't I talk to Allah about my insecurities he is going to answer all. After my prayers I started feeling a bit relived and relaxed and was steam ironing my clothes and my sister was waiting to do my skin care which I was dreading cause I totally don't wanna mess up my face before engagement. "Beta Arafath, give me the ring I have to pack it along with other gifts and I will give you tomorrow at the time of the ceremony" My mom came in rushed, she has been in her toes since the dates were fixed doing all arrangements as she is experiencing something that she has dreamt of all life.
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I took out ring out of my wardrobe, since I got this ring I have been. Imagining it on her finger. My mom was really happy I can see that in her smile, I know I have made them go through lot cause of my past but my family was always with me at every step of my recovery from my old relationship and I will always be thankful for that.
It's almost 11:00 we were supposed to leave by 10:30 cause of traffic and all but the people in my house decided to reminisce about my childhood at the breakfast table which took about an hour and half discussion, I don't want to make her wait!! And I can't wait to see what she looks like today? I want to know will she like the ring , is she happy today?
While I was thinking all these my mum started pushing me out of the room to make sure that I look perfect and she started making dua for me and blowing it in my face after reading it to protect me from the evil eye,and we all left by 11:30 finally!!!
It took us almost one hour to reach the venue we reached by 12:30, we entered and I was about to take my seat when I heard oh no Sana didi fainted, That's all, it took me 2 minutes exactly to reach her room where she was looking I don't know pale!! She was looking different!!,it wasn't makeup or the dress. That's when realisation hit when I went closer to her she has lost weight!!!
What has she done to her self though she has lost weight which is not healthy as she has lost absurd amount of weight for one month and she looks haggard,she doesn't have that glow that she usually has on her face and I couldn't me more disappointed, does she think I will not like or as she is overweight or did she loose weight cause she doesn't want this relationship? Before I reach to anymore conclusions, I wanted to take a look at her I asked every one to move aside and asked them to give her some place so that she can breath she was in her lavender saree lying there beautifully, I asked people to move aside and checked on her, my mum always carried a portable pulse oxymeter in her bag I checked her pulse and blood pressure with that pulse was very low as expected and I also checked her blood glucose from the first aid kit from my car which my sister got it immediately and her sugar was absurdly low, I turned to her mother and asked when was the last time she ate anything, I can tell by the look on her face that even she doesn't know that. I was furious why did she do all these stupid fad dietin, she is educated she knows better than anything, as we were discussing I heard a muffled moan, she was awake finally I asked someone to get something to eat and by the time she was all conscious the plate was ready with the lunch prepared,
Do you want to make a habit of fainting for my attention? She looked with her big eyes at me as if a deer was caught in front of lights. She looked so confused and beautiful at the same time that the feeling of holding her and kissing her was primal,only if we were married I can take such liberties. But the moment she understood what I meant about grabbing attention she had this smile in her face which was so coy and beautiful I knew at that moment that she is going to be death of me.
