I learned something I feel is valuable today. Both good and bad, but that just shows change can be made.
I make better friends online because I'm the drowning friend to my friends in person.
To those who don't know the term, the drowning friend is the one that is never asked to hang out with the group. They're never texted first. They're never thought of. But that drowning friend is always trying to make plans with said "friends" and is the only one to schedule said plans.
Those said friends never offer to pay.
Those said friends never offer to drive.
Those said friends never come up with ideas to fill in time between occasions.
It's always the drowning friend.
The drowning friend goes unnoticed to the point of where no one throws them the life preserver.
I'm the drowning friend.
Making friends online though? So much easier.
You just text them online because you don't meet them in person. You don't have to worry about paying for a group's dinner. You don't have to drive everyone. You just gotta talk and be yourself.
I cared way too much about holding onto friendships. I thought they meant everything to me. But I don't mean a thing to them.
New year, new me, right?
So here's my resolution.
Stop being the doormat.
Stop being the drowning friend. If they cared, they would try.
And those that don't care? Let go of them.
It's not worth the negative time and energy to feel so lonely when people said they would be there for me.
