My First Horse

A Step Too Close

This chapter is dedicated to @HeartlandAddict for commenting and voting on the last chapter! I was going to stop writing this story because i thought nobody was reading it or liking it. So once again thank you! For those of you who do read it thanks to you as well!
------------After we received the news about brownie that got me thinking of how long I would have with her. That's what scared me the most, like she would just close her eyes one day and not wake up. I always feared the worst, but the worst was yet to come. She started to lay down a lot in the barn. My brothers and I had to coax her to get up by using treats and sweet feed. Sometimes I would stay home from school so I could watch her. Laying down was bad for her because she layed on her side, which is bad for a horse if they are there for a long period of time. Out of praying, and pure luck she survived longer than we had thought. 3 years later she had turned 30. She's old. I walked onto the porch of my house to overlook the pastures and I saw her lying down. I raced out to her barefooted not caring about rocks and stickers. When I crouched down to her she didn't bother trying get up. When we first got her she had sort of a twinkle in her eyes. But now she looked drained and faded in her eyes. It pained me to see her like that. I tried coaxing her and talking her into which it was MY breaking point. I layed against her body and she layed her had on my lap. I quietly cried into her neck saying,"You can't do this to me, not now, you can't, please you have to get up." (Those were my exact words as well.) and as if on que or something she shook her head up and downs which I figured out means 'yes' or 'ok'. She struggled at first but then shakily stood up. My face brightened up with sheer joy and I couldn't be happier. I hugged her around her neck as she layed her head against my back. I kept repeating 'thank you' as 'I love you'. Things from there looked like they were starting to get better. Little did I know what would be coming for us. A couple months later I overheard a phone call from my mom and my veterinarian. I gazed out of the phone call then the talk between my mom and dad once I heard,"Were going to have to put her to sleep." Right then I broke down and quietly ran to my room. That night I cried myself to sleep, knowing that I would be losing my best (animal) friend soon. The last two things I thought before I went to sleep was 'She used to follow me around like a little puppy would it's owner' and 'why does this have to happen especially now'. I wish I could turn back time so I could be with her even more, but time would soon become my worst enemy and that my horse, my brownie, my best friend would soon be taking a step too close and having to face heavens gates...