Ponyboy Curtis

Finale

After smoking for a while Pony turns to me "wanna head back to my place?" "sure" I say,we get up and start walking to his house.
We start walking up to his house but when he try's opening the door its locked, he looks at me with a confused look and started checking all the windows. Nobody home and everything's locked.
"My brothers must still be at work" he says "you know when they're gonna be back?" I questioned but hoping they won't be home anytime soon "that's the thing I have no idea,but at this time at night im guessing not for a long time" "wanna just stay at my house?" I say excitedly,Pony's cheeks start to get a little blushed "sure!" He told me. We walked holding hands with our fingers intertwined to my house,we got there quick and I rain up to the door "after you" I say with a smile and bow "why thank you,thank you very much" he says with a bad Elvis impression.We walk in quietly but I soon realize my mom wasn't even home,we head up to my room and I jump on my bed "damn im tired" I say closing my eyes,Pony walks over and lays beside me. "Do you wanna call your brothers and tell em you're staying over here?" I say turning my head to him "probably the best idea,Darry would freak if I just disappeared" He said with a laugh.I walk over grab the phone and give it to Pony,he dials in some numbers *ringgg....ringgg...beep* someone picks up fast,Pony was talking to Darry and it took a while for him to convince him to let him sleepover but Darry caved in. I walk over to my bathroom and Pony follows we get ready for bed washing our faces,brushing our teeth. We head back to my room and start changing into comfortable clothes,I lend Pony some of my clothes because there just baggy pants and a shirt,as we change he turns around but I can still tell he's blushing.
*click* I turn off my lamp and turn over to Pony cuddling up to him putting my hand on his chest and him putting his arms around me and holding me close "goodnight pony" I say "goodnight Y/n" "I love you" he whispers the last part. "I love you to Ponyboy" I said in a normal tone and him holding me tighter.
Time passes and it's been about a hour "Pony!" I whisper "Ponyboy! You awake?" "Yeah im awake" he says, "I can't sleep" he turns to me both of us holding eye contact for a good minute "want me to read a book to you?" He says with a smile "yeah" I say then leaning close and kissing his cheek, I turn over and turn on my lamp *click* he walks over to my bookshelf looking at the small array of books then finally picking one up but looks at the cover for a while,eventually walking over and gets back into bed "oooh gone with the wind,I haven't actually read it yet its just been sitting up there" he kinda smiles but its the smile you do that's forced because you don't know how to respond. Ponyboy opens it up to the very beginning and started reading,I situate myself into his lap facing upwards to him reading,as he's reading to me he's playing with my hair with his fingers,pulling them threw and twirling my hair it was even more relaxing because he was reading to me with his southing comforting voice.
After a few chapters I close my eyes but then I started hearing him sniffling and stuttering,I felt a drop of water plop onto my cheek.
"Pony? You ok?" I open my eyes and get up,He was crying, what was he crying for? Did I do something wrong? Me asking if he was ok made it worse,he started to bawl unable to read,his eyes were closed his face was red and his nose was running. Fuck what did I do.
I wrap my hands around him as he puts the book down beside us bearing his face into my neck I could feel his tears run down me,I rubbed his back and twirled his hair,I don't know what to do for these situations but I hope this helps. "I'm so sorry y/n im so sorry" he says through his tears "It's ok you did nothing wrong,everything's gonna be ok" I tried reassuring him,but he really didn't do anything wrong I wonder why he was apologizing? "I really did try y/n im so sorry,I tried not getting like this but I couldn't" he says stuttering and sucking in his mucus back in his nose "You did nothing wrong Pony,what's wrong?" "My friend Johnny Cade, I was reading this book to him but only got half way through before we got picked up by our friend dally to get back to town after the whole soc thing happened and" He starts breaking down he was stuttering through the whole thing I could barely understand him but still tried to listen,I knew about the soc thing and how him and some other greaser ran from the cops but never really heard any details,especially from him. Pony continues "Well I made dally stop the car because the church we where hiding out in was on fire,I barged in with out thinking because there was some kids in there,Johnny had followed and helped me get them out of there but..but Johnny got the worst of the burns,he died right in front of me! He was to damn young! 16 ain't old enough to live! Barely even experienced things,even though in his letter he wrote for me before his death saying he's glade he save those kids and is ok with dying,I just can't help but know this was all my fault,that he could have lived if I was thinking" he stutters through but still clearly says "And not just Johnnys death being my fault but Dally's to! I killed em y/n! It's my fault Johnny died and Johnny was the only person Dal cared about it drove him crazy! The cops shot him to death. And stacked on that is both my parents died a few months in a train reck before that, I don't know how im still here, or anyone else! God look at me im a mess im so sorry y/n you shouldn't have to look at me like this" he says. I don't know what to say, what are you even supposed to say to something like that? I hold him tight in my arms "It's gonna be ok Pony its gonna be ok, you don't need to apologize you've been through so much,this is not your fault I promise you,It's not you fault Ponyboy" we don't say anything for a while and I just hold him as he cry's,eventually he calms down and it just turns into hiccups, this explains his reaction to the book earlier I guess,but he still read it for me because I've never read it before.
The sunrise hits my face,Pony's in my arms and the birds are singing, Pony looks up at me his face still puffy from last night "morning" I whisper "morning" Pony says with a smile,he's definitely not over his traumatic experience but I know this helped him.
-Time skip-
We're walking back to his house and we stop to climb a hill,the sun starts setting,Ponyboys usually mesmerized by it but right now he can only look at me,he grabs my hand and looks into my eyes "Can I be your boyfriend y/n y/l/n?" His eyes glowing looking at me with genuine loving intentions,I start to blush "Of course" He holds me "I love you y/n y/l/n so much" he tells me "I love you to Ponyboy Curtis"