Jejudo .

12

It wasn't long before I left Felix's room, and when I left, it felt like it was a dream. Something I thought wouldn't happen. He stood up hugged me, and he was warm.  Really warm. It was a side hug as well, so I don't even know how I felt all his warmth from his side. It's something I could ease into but, he let go of me and walked me to the door, and watched me go into my room to make sure I was okay. I could get used to it. As friends.

Later, haneul comes back happy and has red spots on her neck that I immediately notice. "So..?" "It's a rash. Don't worry about this mark." "Oh, I'm so fucking worried. You guys made out?" She nods, but not in shame, like it's something to be proud of. "He was so awkward but when he..." She throws herself on the bed and kicks her feet repeatedly. Me too. "Can I tell you everything?" "You don't have to ask." 

And when she was done, I got so jealous. But not because he was cute or had a slutty waist, but the way he handled the situation. First of all, they went on a walk and talked about it. Then they got together. After that, there was a wall nearby, don't know where it came from but it was there, and he pinned her to the wall and just slammed his lips on hers, hand placement just how you would imagine it. And I can't help but feel jealous. "Lucky.." "Then yeah. But he said he liked me ever since we boarded the plane. And I'm not sure if it's true, but I'll take it."

"One thing though. Can you try not to get yourself hurt? You don't necessarily know if he's a good person or not." She nods, groans, and closes her eyes. "Nuh-uh." I slapped her stomach and I smiled brightly. "Change before you sleep. I don't want your nasty Han Jisung germs on my damn bed." She rolls her eyes and gets up to go change. Sejeong walks in a minute later with a red mark as well. And now I'm just mad that I can't bag someone to have a mark on my neck too.

"You too, Sejeong?" "Hmm?" She smiles and smells just like my brother. She walks toward us with a black bag full of snacks that Bangchan had sent our way because he felt like our room was "empty" and "not a vibe." There was a note on it with a smiley face. 

The red mark stands out on her skin but not too much. She leans over me and hugs me as I sit on the bed. "Hannie got marked by Jisung." And she just stood there without a word. She caressed my back and laughed as if whatever I said was a joke. She didn't want to believe it until Haneul walked out with that red mark, and Sejeong just stood there. Speechless.

"Good grief.. what is that on your neck, Haneul...?" And she just laughs and lies on the bed. "A mark, just like that fresh mark on your neck." I'm so fucking mad I can't argue about hickeys and marks on my neck with them, it's making me feel more single than I already am. They bicker about their marks and I laugh at some things they say because they'd blurt out random things. "Alright, hold up. Who marked you?" "I could ask you the same thing."

And Sejeong looks at me and laughs in disbelief and points at her, her hand in front of her stomach. "Shit, I forgot you were with Hana's brother.." It's good she corrected herself before Sejeong got heated about it. "Okay. So who marked you?" She asked again.

Haneul looks at me as Sejeong leans on the bedside table in the middle of the beds. Me and Haneul lying down as we look at each other. "Jisung." And Sejeong just smiles and looks at Haneul. "How in gods green earth did you fucking bag Jisung..?" She knows something about Jisung that we don't... "I don't know actually." "Impressive. Jisung is such a quiet type and never opens up about anything, so it's a surprise he got with you--marked you even." Sejeong goes ahead and jumps in bed with me, hugging me before turning the other way.

"I guess so it is.. Anyway. Who's getting up to turn the light off?" I sigh and I get up. I went and turned all the lights off, but I heard laughing outside. I check outside, and it's Bangchan and Hyunjin. Hyunjin had a red mark too, and Bangchan looked happy to see me again. They wave to me goodnight, and I wave back. The lights are closed, and now I can hop in bed.

I walk over to my bed, when I see my phone light up. 'Lee' : Sent 2 IMessages. I open them with  a smile on my face.

'Lee'

'Lee'
Nice seeing you, Han.
Let's meet in the early morning. 

'Hana'
sure, what time though?
i can't promise you that I'll wake up though

'Lee'
Oh, Haha. Since Bangchan goes early morning with Hyunnie early morning, stop by the room.
We can drama talk again.
9am okay?

'Hana'
sounds good. 

goodnight, lee💞. that shirt you wore today was nice |

goodnight lee

'Lee'
Bye!

I sighed and closed my phone. I hopped into bed, and Sejeong simply just whispered to me. "Tell me what happened just now, because something is wrong here." She pats my head and hugs me while she waits. Her breathing is stable. But my breathing feels like it doesn't exist. I can't fucking breathe. Not in an I'm-dying way, but something is up. I don't know. I'll sleep it off.

"In the morning. I have to get up early for something." "Okay, when you go, tell Lee I said Hello." I could feel her smile even in the dark. "What?" "You know exactly what I meant, Hana. Goodnight."

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