Confused.

Questions and problems.

2 years later.

Marcus.

I'm sitted in the library, a copy of the picture of dorian gray in my hands. Though I seem to be reading, my focus is far from the stark white pages and bold black ink. Instead, my eyes are locked onto Alexander Jones.

I take in his looks, from his sandy brown curls that fall past his eyes, his crystal blue eyes that remind me of the sea, to his light pink lips pulled into a grin. His face is littered with little scars and and dusted with dark brown freckles, two dimples on each end of his grin.

There's no denying the fact that he is gorgeous, breathtaking almost. I would have minded him that much if it weren't for the fact that AJ is currently locked fingers with Gavin Mason.

They're seated across the room, on a window ledge partially hidden by a bookshelf. Gavin whispers in AJ's ear, whilst AJ traces his fingers along each and every one of Gavin's tattoos. When AJ laughs, Gavin does too. They're not loud or obvious seeing as they're in a library, but it still feels like everyone can see them, see how happy they are with each other.

Even I can see it.

I have never wanted to be someone else as much as I want to be AJ right now. I want Gavin to whisper in my ear, want him to laugh when i do, want my fingers to be tracing all the tattoos on Gavin's arm.

"McKellen. " I snap my head in time to see Isiah Jones, AJ's twin brother, take a seat next to me.

"Jones." I say, giving him a questioning look.

"How long have you been here?" He asks, referring to the library.

"Two hours and thirty-five minutes."

"And how long have you been staring at them."

"Two hours and twenty minutes."

He laughs, "So they have taken up that much of your time, even though neither of them has uttered a single word towards you."

"Yep."

"You're fucking stupid."

"Well can you blame me? Looking at them, they're so....in love."

"Which is really non of your business, considering the fact that Gavin is no longer yours."

I physically wince at those words, "I know but...."

My gaze goes back towards them. Now AJ's head is in Gavin's lap, Aj is saying something and Gavin's playing with his hair.

My heart hurts.

I was AJ once. Then I went and fucked it up.

"....I was as happy as AJ when I was with him. I was AJ once upon a time."

Isiah just roles his eyes and laughs. He thinks Gavin is just some ex that I never got over, but I know that Gavin is so much more than that.

"Anyway," Isiah starts, "Wanna come over after school?"

"Maya's busy?" I ask with sarcasm written all over my words.

He just laughs. Maya is his girlfriend who happens to participate in a lot of after school activities, which is a big disadvantage towards Isiah, considering the fact that he is an attention seeking last born.

But they love each other so it doesn't matter.

"Sure." I answer and Isiah leaves, but first shouts for his brother. When AJ's attention is on him, he winks and blows Gavin a kiss. Gavin smiles and pretends to be swoon, while AJ flips his brother off.