The Chronicles of Writing

Resolutions, work and stress

Dear readers, and writers

Happy New Year, guys!

I am gonna be fair, this year was a mess. I don't know how I expected this year to go, but it's not how it went down, that's for sure.

I have this habit of suppressing my feelings, and while trying to work on it I found myself feeling everything at once, which sucked incredibly. But I still have to feel it right? That's how feelings work I have come to learn. (*Rolls eyes at myself*)

It wasn't all that bad though. I found out a lot about the person I am and who I want to be.

That's what New Year is all about right? (*laughs in has been crying every day since then*)

The point is, I want to be different this year, I want to let myself feel everything, not only the good parts of life, and be able to work through them without having to stop my life in the process.

As you probably already figured out, I tend to romanticize my life quite a lot. But only the good parts. That means that went life doesn't live up to the potential that I made up in my head, I lose any motivation to... exist. Nothing feels the way it should, so I just shouldn't do anything... That's why my life goes through a tremendous amount of waves; ups, and downs, that can last months at a time. And that's why my first and most important resolution for 2024, is to live my life even if it sucks. To go out, to do work, and yet not pressure myself to live up to something entirely fictional.

Second resolution, and one you probably want to hear more about.

I want to outline a WIP.

A tiny fragment of the writing process without a doubt, but for this specific book, I want to outline a lot. I have frequently said that I am in no way a planner. It brings me more stress than motivation, like a pile of things I need to do in a specific amount of it me, and no time to do them. For this book though... it feels right. Cause even if it's a world that's very much mythical, with creatures and magic so usual yet so weirdly out of place when fit together, it is most of all a character story. It is (in as few words as I can put it) the personal development of a fairy coming out of a sort of prison if you will. It sounds incredibly strange, and to be fair it very much is, but that's its point. It's a book that has zero chance of being published, and so I want to write it first. That and the thoughts that most authors rarely publish the first book they wrote, removes my nerves out of the equation, enough so that I can focus on the heavy task, that is outlining.

Which brings me to the next resolution. Stress. I discovered in this journey of mine, that I have it. A hell of a lot. For this year, I want to work on my stress. I pressure myself, in ways that I know I shouldn't and then unavoidably end up doing so. Which leads to an incredible amount of procrastination. I want to find a way to live with myself no matter how much I get done in a day. I have found a bunch of podcasts, TED talks, and books that I wanna listen to/hear/read, that I think will help (I enjoy learning in all of its types, so it feels like the best way to work on myself). If you have any advice on anything similar, whether it's for stress management, time planning, writing a book, or just personal developments, please leave a comment or message me, it will be a great help :).

I have a bunch of other resolutions that don't have much to do with writing, apart from reading more than 50 books without putting life on hold to finish them, so for now, I will leave you with,

Doing something little by little is so much better than not doing it at all.

Goodbye people, have a good start in 2024 ;)