Think I need someone older (The come back?)

N I N E

At night I slept without even texting Lewis, I wasn't jealous I just wanted to know what in the hell is happening with my fucking car

The morning I woke up with a terrible headache and I walked to have breakfast downstairs, my dad was sitting with Christian but I decided have my breakfast alone

No one came to me because they know me, I don't want talk to anyone when I'm like that

I drove myself alone until the track, I found Lewis in the entrance of the paddocks and he immediately grabbed my arm

"What in the hell?" I asked madly

"You can avoid what happened in the fucking track but you can't avoid me!" Lewis said madly almost yelling at me

"Seriously now?" I asked madly

"Stop it!" Lewis yelled at me "I have texted you thousand times and you avoid me! That's so fucking disrespectful! I know that you are mad with what happened yesterday but have you ever understood how I was feeling last season when you were winning at the age of 18!"

I stopped talking and I had a sad face

"Lewis" I said softly

"Think what you did and then come talk to me" Lewis walked away madly and I sighed

"I'll talk to him he'll be fine" I turned to watch Valtteri "He was right sweetie!"

"I hate when he's right" I sighed and Valtteri giggled kissing my hair

"He was but I'll talk to him! Let's walk until our garages now" Valtteri suggested, we walked together until our garages

Hugh was there talking with Christian and Gianpiero

"Hey there" I said sad and I walked to my room and Christian came after me, I walked in my room and my team principal followed me until there

"What happened?" Christian asked "Are you mad?"

I sighed closing my eyes

"Did you two fight?" He asked and I just giggled ironically

"I don't know!" I looked at him "I really don't know!from the one side yes but from the other side no! I don't know! I think yes we fought! I didn't talk to him after the tests yesterday so he became mad and we fought yelling in the paddocks with the whole paddocks watching us!"

"Don't worry you probably are jealous, don't you?" Christian asked

"I don't know" I tried to smile "I will go and talk to him after the test"

"Yeah you have to! You two are so madly in love that you have to talk about what happened! We don't know what is going wrong with us but we'll find out! Lewis last year didn't win that much and he watched us winning the one race after the other! Don't blame him" Christian patted my arm "Get ready now for the test"

Christian walked away of the room

"Christian" I said and he stopped walking to look at me "Thank you"

Christian just nodded and walked out of my room closing the door behind, I changed into my race suit and then I walked to my car to start the test

The times were bad again, 16th fastest and Max 18th, this gonna be a long season

I walked out of my car and I decided have a quick shower before I'll go to find Lewis, I wore a black shorts leggings with the RedBull T-Shirt and Puma sneakers and I found myself walking the garage of Mercedes

Lewis was just got out of the garage, a small smile appeared when he watched me and he immediately to me

"How are you?" He asked with his cute calm voice

"As good as I can be with a shitbox for a car! You?" I asked knowing that he ended again 1st

"I don't know how to feel, I mean I am happy but you are 16th and that does not make me completely happy" Lewis sighed "I really want you to the podium next to me"

"I want you too" I giggled softly "I wanted to apologise for earlier, I am jealous because Mercedes is doing so good and we are shit this season but I am happy because you are happy! I watch you being 1st and that makes me know that you can take back the 8th"

"Do you mean it?" He asked smiling

"Yes" I nodded "Will you kiss me or what?" I giggled

"Oh yeah" Lewis pressed his lips gently to mine

I like when we fight because this means that we don't follow the same routine

Routine...

With me racing for RedBull and Lewis for Mercedes, two rivals in love