Deja vu

Wind

Akk carefully lets himself off Aye's arms, he tries not to wake him up. he goes to the restroom, He stares at himself while he gets all up in his head, tears fall down his eyes. He can't be happy even if he wanted to, he's weak. But that day, he wanted to spend as much time as he can with Aye. He wants this to be Aye's best day, he got ready and made breakfast for the both of them. He made Aye's favorite food and cooked it by himself, he wants Aye to feel his love for him.

Aye wakes up and turned to the side, as he opens his eyes, Akk wasn't there, he panicked and kept shouting Akk's name, as if he felt like he lost him, Akk hears him and shouted,

"kitchen!"

Aye felt a big relief, Akk is there. He went to the kitchen immediately and saw Akk preparing the most amazing breakfast.

"Akk! what's all this? whats the occasion, did i forget something?"

"yes."

"what?? you didn't tell me anything"

Akk asked Aye to come closer, Aye leans in with confusion and Akk steals a kiss from Aye, aye can't help but smile, that gave him ease, he sees the effort Akk is making to assure him that he's doing better.

They finished breakfast and got ready together, Aye was about to approach to the car but Akk stops him, he would drive this time so thag Aye could be the passenger princess, plus, Akk promised Aye that he'll take him somewhere.

As Akk drives, Aye noticed that he's taking him to somewhere familiar, the road leads to somewhere Aye always goes to, Akk stops the car and Aye sees that Akk took him to the cliffs. Aye felt emotional, as usual.

"I've noticed that you haven't been feeling good, i know you wouldn't let me know even if i asked, Aye, sometimes you need to worry about yourself, Im fine if you're fine, i took you here to rewind, i know it will help you."

Akk pulls Aye in for a tight hug,

"like you told me, you're allowed to be weak, at least with me."

Aye let out a little sigh,

"Akk, i love you."

"i love you too."

Akk and Aye sat together at the cliff for a while, they talked about their love for each other, and remembered all their memories during high school, Aye fell asleep on Akk's shoulder. The moment they stopped talking, Akk's dark thoughts resurfaced, he looked at Aye whike he sleeps beautifully on Akk's shoulder

"Aye, i love you, i really do. But i can't go on like this, it's hurting you, i dont like seeing you like this. It's for the better..."

Akk carries Aye to the car and drove him back to his home. Aye wakes up as Akk tries to carry him to the house,
Aye giggled, he found it cute.

"oh Akk, im awake now"

"oh then, ill see you to your door then."

"you're not coming with me?"

"well...i want to, i really do, but khan asked me to help him with something.."

"oh! well thats fine, just call me okay?"

"yes... i will"

"love you."

"love you too..."

Aye goes in his house and Akk goes to his car, the moment Akk closed his car door, tears went down his eyes,

"i love you Aye..."

he drives away, and he goes back to the cliff, he walks towards it, he looks up to the sky to look at the stars and the shining moon, the sky looked so beautiful, as he closed his eyes, tears went down, he breathes in the air and feels the wind, he opens his eyes, his body shakes, his hands were cold, he was pale, he thought of their memories together, he noticed that Aye was the one that was struggling because of him, he thought that hes not good for Aye, and that if hes not good for Aye, he's not good for anyone.

as he walks closer to the cliff, he takes out the jacket Aye gave him and placed it on the ground. He left a note for Aye, his parents and his friends. He reached the very tip of the cliff, he closed his eyes and counted,

"neung, song, sam".