The silence : suffering (ongoing)

Chapter 3

"MIKEY! AGAIN?!" i yelled out as i stormed out of my lab "its the last time i promise" he ran out of the lair and jumped up onto the modified hoverboard (i made by the way) pulling down his mask while holding my small vial of perfected mutagen in his pocket , i sighed crossing my arms. "mikey needs to tell his friend the truth soon or we'll be out of this stuff soon" raph said holding little Lesley on his shoulder , "hiii uncle donnie" she smiled , "hey kid" i chuckled and pat her head , "how is she?" i asked , "meeting her dad , kinda hoping i could go with but its a personal and private matter , so i gotta watch this little one , plus he doesnt know i'm this" he gestured to himself and i nodded in understanding. He ruffled Lesley's hair , i smiled "i'm heading back to the lab" i said as i walked away "hey don?" raph called out , "yeah?" i turn to face him ," you doing alright brother?" i gave him a puzzled look "perfectly fine" i lied . "why'd you ask?" i watched as he rubbed the back of his neck , "well , i know its been years , you know after...that?" he said then i looked to the ground "please dont bring it up , ever again" i glared and closed my double doors and sighed.

Making my way to my work bench i put my goggles back on and covered my ears with music (i am a poseur - x-ray spex) soldering metal parts together was easy enough , but finding the parts aren't always easy. Like her , i shook my head and huffed rubbing my face. I was tired and frustrated , i stood up to get more coffee and found leo drinking tea and staring into the mug , he looked up when i came over "hey don , you good?" he asked in that caring older brother tone "i swear i feel like everyone is in my business for no reason today , can we please just drop the subject" i said annoyed , he chuckled "you know i'm only asking because you looked tired , you know i wont push that subject any further"he then left the kitchen to sit with raph as they watched tv and gave Lesley attention as she scribbled on a sketchbook with crayons , i smiled softly  then disappeared back into my hole .

That night i layed awake , i couldn't sleep , i couldn't think i couldn't breath...

I sat up and went to the bathroom to wash my face and i stared at my reflection in the mirror , she's taken over you , she's poison your mind , you will become nothing , she betrayed you , played you for a fool , i shut my eyes tight and walked out wiping my face with my towel and head back into my lab where i will stay till the next morning , well into the day it was already 4 a.m. and i had finished another piece of invention and i smiled , but then i looked at it again with doubt , will it work? Of course it will , your a smart turtle
I spun in my rolling chair to look behind me and i sighed "what the fuck" i said hoarsely laughing and rubbed my eyes , its back again...after 6 years...and that voice still haunts me. I looked at my invention , a simple motor upgrade on my bo staff... I smiled slightly , "lets give this baby a shot" i said and took it to my testing space , remove the safety and pressed the button , and in an instant in roared to life and it unfolded itself , i smiled widely then  muscle memory took place and i turned to look at my work bench , looking for someone then my smile faded slowly and realization hitting me hard she isnt here you fool...

I woke up around bear noon with back and neck pain , groaning i sat up slowly "good morning my son" , "WoAh , DAD!?" I sat up a little too quickly and i groaned in pain rubbing my neck , "sleeping in your lab again?" he asked , "s-sorry" i said , slowly he walked over and made me sit on the chair as he pressed down on the nape of my neck and i slowly felt relief , "my son i am old , and i dont like to see my son in bad shape and health , please try to get some rest and clean your workplace , i may not know what your going through at this age , but i urge you to try , try to move on and help yourself" he said and with one swift motion from the center of my neck he cracked it back and instantly i felt relieved "thanks...dad ,  i promise not to worry you again" , i smiled with tired eyes , "go sleep its only 7 am , better sleep now to catch up on rest" , he smiled patted my hand and walked out of my lab his tail closing the lab door with a flick , i sighed as i leaned back on my chair and stared at the ceiling "i took off my glasses and pinched the bridge of my nose slash snout and breathed in deeply then letting it out , i stood pushing my chair in and walked out heading to my room , i took off my mask and layed on my enforced bed and stared into the ceiling , i turned to my side then saw my other pillow , the one i brought back with me... From her place , i pulled it close hugging it and sniffing its scent , realizing just how much i've missed sleeping on my bed opting to either sleeping in my lab or in the common room , my eyes grew heavy and i slowly drifted off to sleep , i was in the water , i could breath in the water no problem , but as i looked below me , i noticed a hand reach out from the darkness , i contemplated swimming down to help but the voice in my head stopped me again dont help , dont help , dont help , traitor , traitor , dont be a fool , you'll play into a trap , i shook my head angrily shutting out the voices and swam down to help but the current in the water was pulling me back up , i swam harder kicking and digging into the water till i finally reached the hand , i grabbed it and pulled them to me only to be met with a familiar voice and face covered in their hair underwater "donnie?" , i sat up in a cold sweat , panting and looking around me , i sat there looking at my hands and calmed down slightly from my shock "i must be out of my shell" i chuckled smiling nervously at myself "...why...now?"

Just then i heard the alert on my computer , and as i walk out raph looked at me almost in worry and horror , "i dont think you'll like anything that you're gonna see" he said patting my shoulder and Leo and Mikey turned away. I was confused at their sudden behavior until i looked at the cameras myself.

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