The silence : suffering (ongoing)

Chapter 5

27 years ago:

I arrived to New York just a month ago , i was immediately accepted into the university i had applied to , and my aunt had helped me throughout the entire thing. She signed as my guardian and i was finally on track , i got myself a dorm room and began working.

It was hard at first since i needed work experience , but i got a job somehow , i also did odd jobs for extra cash , after 2 months in i worked through my new schedule. From the moment i wake up i would study , go for my morning classes , then go for my morning shift work part time , then i clock out , afternoon classes , then work , straight to night classes and then night shift. I was getting the grades i was scoring for with flying colours , but my attendance was in shambles. "late again miss l/n" my Professor said in dissapointment "just because you pass my class doesn't mean i'm giving you any leeway for being late". "sorry Professor Burhan" i bowed my head in apology before heading to my table and getting for the lecture.

Almost all my Professors have complained of my attendance , i opted for dropping some jobs , but student loans arent exactly cheap. And the salary for a teen isnt much to be proud of. I sat in my dorm room that late night when a knock came at the door. I stood up to answer it thinking it might be the principal ready to finally give me a warning slip when a cheerful face stood outside the door. "heyyy i'm Lily your new roommate" she said in a soft hushed voice since it was near late midnight. "hey i'm Y/n l/n" i introduced myself and had helped her in. I thought the bedroom beside mine was taken but to my surprise it really was vacant. I guess i've been working i hadn't noticed. "so whats yer major?" she asked as she began unpacking her things her lamp rock thing? various glass ball nightlights lined the shelves , textbooks and she began ripping off the plastic off the bed dusting it off. "science" i answered as i watched her. "ooh your a nerd...wait you? Really?" she suddenly looked skeptical. "yeah , why is that hard to believe" i raised a brow. "well for starters , your overall appearance , you look too cute for it" i looked at myself confused before realizing she was fucking with me , she slowly smirked "you got me" i smiled softly.

She then laughed softly "i dont stereotype btw , not everyone are the same , try to guess my major" she smiled as she just tossed her clothes into the cabinet. "i 'dunno , Arts? Music?" i guessed. "nope i'm actually in Business management" i was surprised "thats interesting" i smiled.

"yep i'm Lily Rogers btw , i noticed you introduced yourself with your full name so i'm doing the same , by the way , why science?" she asked. I looked at her then my eyes landed on the ground "only thing i'm great at , i cant do no artsy stuff , i do like music though" . "well then i guess we are gonna get along just fine" she smiled. And just like that we became close knit , apparently she came from a very wealthy family , her dad was well known and her mother was an event planner , the most luxurious one at that , i just never thought she'd pursue on something small. "a cafe?" i repeated her earlier project as we ate in the canteen. "no not just a cafe , a cat cafe" she corrected me. "but you can do so much more why settle for a small cat cafe?" i asked confused. And she smiled at that "y/n , its not about how big the corporation or dream is , its how well and how much i can handle it , i know my capabilities , i'm starting small for a reason , i'm not just making it a cat cafe either , its a place where i can care for strays . If a Customer loves the cat , feels a connection with them , they can take them home , its like a daycare / vet / cafe / rescue kinda thing , and since i have friends who are vets , i could hire them , so my corporation may seem and look small , but its changing for a great big cause , and soon when i'm ready to expand , i will , not just cats , to other animals too , i'll be the first person to actually be taking strays off the streets , giving them a temporary home in my care and see them off to people who want them. Its great for the environment and for them , and on that note i dont want to make it big yet , i want to be responsible and handle what i can first" she beamed smiling. I sipped on my apple juice as i take in her words "thats , thats actually great" i smiled agreeing with her.

I admired that about her , and so i took that advice into my daily life , i decided to drop some of my odd jobs and my nightshift jobs , i filled that time with rest and study instead. I was no longer late and i was star student , my grades , my attendance were all on track and Lily was there for me every step of the way , true to what she said she was amazing at her major , one of the homeworks her Professor gave was of sales , and she earned a whopping 10 035 during only 2 weeks , just from handmade crochet , she hired students who were able to make nice crochet work and rewarded them for their crafts , all the equipment was bought by her own money from part time jobs and she invested in it , it was nice to witness her at work , she really new what she was doing.

We celebrated that night during christmas ,   with a bunch of other friends who were dorm neighbours. "so truth or dare Lily" a girl name Hanna asked. Somehow we ended up drunk and playing the infamous cliche game of truth or dare. "dare" lily smiled smugly. "alright , kiss Kaitlin" everyone ooh-ed and Lily smiled confidently. The girl with auburn hair and a beanie flushed "what kinda dare is that , this isnt spin the bottle" she said awkwardly laughing , everyone laughed while Lily headed over to her "c'mere sweetcheeks , come gimme a kith" she teased and pulled Kaitlin's face to hers and kissed her. I laughed and so did the others.

The night progressed and we all just ended up playing 2 truths and a lie. Kaitlin dug in the box for a name and it was mine "alright (short nickname) your up" she smiled. Everyone seemed to perk up to hear me , i chuckled "alright uhm , i ran away from home , i was in love someone and my eyes are black in colour".

Lily smiled "you were in love with someone , too easy , gurl you never talked about your love life , all the boys i pointed to never sparked an interest in you" she said proudly till Shane another girl in the group poked her "dude her eyes are dark brown" Shane pointed out , and Lily's jaw dropped and she squealed. I sunk deeper into her bean bag and hid behind my hood my face drunk and red. "who?" "Is it someone we know?" "Girl?" "Guy?" "Is he cute?". I was bombarded with questions. "i actually never met him , we met online on a gaming website , you know that dnd indie game before it crashed" they all went silent and squealed again. "didn't know you like em mysterious s/n" Hanna said. "did you atleast got his name?" Kaitlin asked. Then i looked away. "damn your still inlove with a guy you never met and dont even know the name to?" i sighed. "yeah" i admitted. They dropped the subject when they saw how i became uncomfortable with the topic , then the topic of sexuality came. "i'm a bean" Lily smiled i already knew. "i think we kinda knew that , i'm an Ace but i still like sexual stuff , like books with sex , just cant see myself bein intimate with others though" shane said.

"i'm straight" Hanna said without hesitance. "i'm pansexual" Kaitlin said drinking the rest of her beer. "and you y/n?"shane asked as she smoked her weed.
"i'm bi" i said. "hold up i thought you liked guys" Lily asked confused. "i do , i also like girls , you think i haven't experimented? , ofcourse i'm still a virgin , i've only kissed girls and guys , never went to first base , i'm saving that" Lily snorted laughing. "gurl you really are just a bag if secrets". The night ended with us all being drunk and passed out , i was the only one sober since i've only had one beer and nothing else. I walked around the room draping blankets over the girls and i headed to my room to study since i didn't feel like sleeping.

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