I can see you

Ignoring

,,so that's why they said all that and after that she- Lover are you even listening?"
,,huh what?"
I looked up at Lore who was still putting stuff in her locker while telling me her new drama
Tbh I did not listen to her but my head is just full of rep and everything that happened
For a reason I don't feel good about it but I still want it to happen
,,lover?? Hello? What's wrong today?"
,,I am sorry I'm just...not really feeling well"
,,you wanna see the nurse?"
,,no..."
,,No I'm serious what happened you seem so of?"
I pulled her to the side in an empty classroom
,,I slept with reputation"
,,YOU DID WHAT"
,,shhh...well we didn't exactly sleep together but she uh...did it to me"
,,THATS HU-"
,,SHH"
,,lover that's hugeee I am so happy"
,,no...so this has been going on for a while but it's secret and I feel like she's ashamed of me. And I like it and her but I think she's using me for my body...which i don't get cause my body isn't even good"
,,you have a great ass tho"
,,That's not the point! But thank you..."
,,you need to talk to her. If she is using you stop it. If she really likes you go ahead and start dating"
,,ok I'll try...I have practice today so maybe I can talk to her after that"
,,great idea! Go get her tiger!"
,,ew don't call me that"
,,hahahah ok sorryy"

,,ON POSITION EVERYONE!
BETTY STOP BEING SLOPPY"
I stood on the field with shaking knees only thinking about every single thing I wanted to say.
When I turned around I bumped into Rep
,,Lover pay fucking attention or you're of the team!"
,,but-"
,,i don't fucking care about all your baby problems so don't even bother to tell me that shit"
Well that hurt
After that I didn't became any better
She was picking on me and calling me out for almost everything
I had troubles running (no wonder why)
,,LOVER STOP RUNNING LIKE YOU GOT FUCKED!"
how ironic
I think I really regret it
How could I be so stupid
Ofc she doesn't like me
She's wayyy prettier than me and also popular

After practice
,,Lover you suck. I wanna see a better performance next time or I'll kick you off the team"
,,sorry it's just- my legs hurt"
,,oh I know but idc. You didn't complain last night did you??"
,,I actually wanted to talk to you cause uh-..so I- uhm"
,,are you gonna finish that sentence?"
She made me so nervous
And I am annoyed that she does but every time I stare into those gorgeous eyes I just lose the ability to talk
,,math homework is finished"
Why did I say that
,,good. Give it to me tmrw"
With that I left the field
Not being able to express any of my feelings
Again
How is this supposed to continue??