I can see you

Our little secret

,,what's wrong with you?"
I felt tears streaming down my face
I was bend over my bed with Rep behind me starting to unbuckle my pants
,,st-sto-op"
,,What? Stop whispering"
,,pls stop..."
My voice didn't get much louder but I knew she heard
,,wtf lover? Why are you all of a sudden sad when I'm about to fuck you?"
I could hear that she was annoyed with me and that made me cry even more
,,ok stop you're really making me dry again."
She flipped me over and helped me up so I was now sitting on the edge of my bed
She suddenly sunk in and went on her knees
Both her hands rested on my legs
,,what's wrong lov?"
Her voice was soft and she looked at me with worry
I didn't even know that side of her
,,I-I don't wa-ana keep doing th-is"
I managed to get out the sentence while sobbing and I honestly was proud of myself for that
,,do you mean me getting you off and stuff?"
I nodded
,,Lover why didn't you just say that?"
,,I want t-to keep you-u
I like you
I thought you would leave me if not for my body"
My voice cleared up through the sentence and I was looking at her gorgeous green eyes full of worry
,,baby I don't wanna leave you? I'm just... I am like not a relationship person and idk if I can be loyal and all that cause honestly I'm a bit fucked up"
,,do you even like me?"
,,yes? Why would I literally spend all my evenings with you? I don't even get too much pleasure out of it. I wanna make you feel good. Because I like you"
She was right
All this time she never excepted me to give her the pleasure back cause she knew that I was still pretty innocent and would be uncomfortable
Ofc there was homework and stuff but it wasn't the same
,,I can't have a relationship with you either cause I think my parents are homophobic..."
She now leaned forward until she reached my ear
,,how about we make this our little secret?"
My eyes widened and I nodded
She grabbed my chin and gave me a passionate kiss
We kissed before
But never like this
It was different

An: YAS FINALLY