between smokes and cigarettes-☆

in the end it's always us-☆

☆- Context:

Okay, basically it's summer! which means.. more time to do stupid shit w my friends! And that's exactly what we're doing rn, Mikey just had the wonderful idea of doing a sleepover on his house, i mean, his mom's (Donna) house lol.

°.•~ y/n pov:

Ray...wth do u mean by 'MAYBE'?! I LITERALLY ASKED IF U WOULD KISS UR BSF FOR 100 DOLLARS

"idk, maybe it's not that bad, like, it can be on the cheek right?"
*He says in the most innocent way i've ever seen*

yk what- *i'm cutted up by my bf who just arrived*

"guys! I bought vodka!!" *He says happily looking at us, how is he always so energetic? The 3 of us turning to face him*

Hi Frankie! *i hug him tight and he hugs me back, he's smelling like cigarretes and a faint smell of alcohol*

"hi man, did u bring something more.. fun too?"
*Gerard asks w a smile as he gets up, clearly talking abt weed*

"not today, my mom was pissing me off, i kinda leaved in a rush" *frank explains w a defeated face*

"well at leats we have vodka-" *Mikey says low, he's sitting in the couch*

"u should do that drink! that blue one, yk Mikey?" *Ray says smiling as he glance at Gerard, who looks deeply offended*

"NO WAY I'M GONNA DRINK THAT WEIRD ASS SHIT AGAIN-" *Gerard shouts out at Ray, who's laughing like everyone else now, the last time Gee drinked that shit he literally passed out and just woke up on the next day and without his boots*

skip time! yay-☆

they're all asleep? *i ask kinda low as i look at everyone sleeping, unless Gerard, i swear that sometimes i think he's a vampire, he never fucking sleep*

"yeah, kinda fast.. they were too drunk i guess" *he says w a small giggle and i smile too*

wanna go smoke outside? *i ask alredy knowing the answear, Gerard smile and get up, we go to his backyard*

"i didn't noticed it was drizzling.." *he says quietly as smoke is surrounding us*

i like rainy days.. and nights-

"ik u do" *he says w a small smile as he glances at me, our eyes locked together, we randomly burst into laughters, idk why, but we do that since we met, 10 years ago*

so.. how's u and Kysha going? *i ask now looking at the black sky*

"i break up w her-" *he says nonchalant*

fuck- i'm sorry! why u didn't tell me that? *i turn to face him, leaned on the wall as i blow some smoke on him*

"idk, i guess i just.. didn't love her, it's diffucult" *Gerard seems a bit off, like he's hiding something*

hey, are u okay Gee? *i ask kinda concerned now, my hand resting on his shoulder*

"y-yeah, i just need to sleep" *he says wanting to change the topic, he don't like to talk abt him or his feelings at all, he feels like a burden when he does that*

hey... u can talk to me if u want, okay? or maybe if u just need a hu- *before i can finish my sentence his arms are wrapped around me, his cold nose buried on my neck, i hug him back *

"i need to get some sleep" *he says w a cute giggle after*

yeah, let's go sleep... *i smile at him and we enter the house again*

"they're still asleep, on the floor.." *we look at eachother and hold back our laughs*
"mm.. u can sleep in my bed if u want" *he says shyly and i could swear that his cheeks turned slightly pink for a moment*

sounds good, thx Gee, u saved me from sleeping here w these drunk ass dudes! *i say in a playful way as we try to laugh low*

"mkay, let's go" *before i can agree he holds my hand, i felt a warmth spread on me.. in a friendship way ofc.. right?!*

it's been a while since i came in ur room *i say looking at the new posters*

"yeah, like 1 week i guess-" *he says w a grin as he chuckles, he's right, we're together almost everyday, he's my neighbour and my childhood bsf, so it makes even more easy lol*

okay, now i REALLY need to sleep *the drink effects finally hitting as i throw myself on the bed by his side*

"yk, in the end it's always us.. in the depths of night, in front of tv's watching scary movies.. y/n i-" *he stops himself when he noticed that i'm alredy asleep*

"good night for u too" *he giggles softly and drift off to sleep, but i keep wondering.. what would he say if i was awake, if i weren't so.. so tired..*