Jikook | Does he like me?

Chapter 9

The first thing I see when I open my eyes the next morning is Jungkook, staring at me with a lot of unreadable expressions and emotions on his face.

"Penny for your thoughts?" I groan out, still half asleep.

He stares into my eyes, his widening realising that I'm now awake. But he doesn't say anything.

I feel guilt eat at me.

Did he not enjoy last night? Does he regret it?

Maybe that's why he's looking at me like that. Regret. Then I remembered how drunk the younger was last night, and realise that I basically forced him. He didn't consent. And even if he did it wasn't under reasonable conditions.

"Look Jungkook.. I'm sorry for what happened last night. You were drunk and.. I took advantage of you. You didn't consent last night, you were too drunk to be able to think clearly. I'm so sorry." I choke up. He's going to hate me now.

"Woah Hyung! Hold up, n-no.. that's not why I'm.. Uhh." Jungkook looks down embarrassed. I continue to look at him, deciding not to talk and to let him finish in his own time. He coughs out, scrunching his nose slightly. "I-it's true that I wasn't in the right mind to be able to consent, but that doesn't mean I d-didn't want it Hyung! I really-really liked what happened last night. I-I just.. Umm... I'm embarrassed okay? Y-you didn't... you know... finish." He whispered out the last word. The more I stare at him the more red his face becomes. Now the red is covering his cheeks, neck and ears. He keeps his head down, still trying to avoid eye contact.

I chuckle, "What happened last night won't happen again Jungkook-ah. I'm so sorry that I let it happen."

Now his eyes shoot up to mine. Impossible wide and a hurt look crosses his face. "D-do you n-not want me?" He whispers out, eyes starting to fill with tears.

I rub his back. "No Jungkook-ah.. Last night was fucking amazing. Hearing you like that, seeing you.. was fucking amazing. But your not of age. And I don't know if I can hold back next time..." I grunt out, thinking back to last night makes me almost start sporting a semi.

"And if I don't want you to h-hold back?" Jungkook whispers, looking up into my eyes.

Yep definitely sporting a semi.

"Jungkook don't say stuff like that. Really we can't. Your not of age. Come on, lets go down for breakfast, you need to eat something considering how much you drank last night." I groan out.

...

And we didn't. The months went by, and we never went past kissing. The dance with Taemin was cancelled, I had personally asked management to. As much as I liked my friend, I loved Jungkook more. Maybe one day in the future we will have the opportunity again, but I was more focussed on Jungkook then a dance with my friend.

Since that day however the renowned nicknames of 'Satellite Jeon' and 'Jeonlous' appeared. On nearly every video that was made about us, regardless of whether it was an interview, performance, or even behind the scenes released content, many people would comment the nicknames.

At first I was confused as to what they meant by it. But it only took reading a couple of comments explaining it and watching the videos back to understand.

Jungkook followed me everywhere. Satellite Jeon.

In the moment I never noticed it. I thought it was endearing that where ever I was Jungkook wasn't far behind. Or when we had an interview, he was suddenly in the seat next to me or standing beside me regardless of the previous arrangements from management. But by watching the videos I saw it in the way that Army could see. Jungkook watching me, slowly slipping out of his position every single time to make his way over to me. The little smile he does to himself being proud of being able to achieve his goal. The way he would immediately put his arm around me, or touch me the second he was close enough. The way that he would travel from the other side of the stage to be able to sing to me during a performance. The way he would yell 'I LOVE YOU' to 'army' while looking directly at me.