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☠︎ - 6

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hongjoong wondered how he ended up here. sat on seonghwas bed, the door shut, room filled with a thick atmosphere he couldn't grasp as he focused on painting the dark black nail polish onto seonghwas nails.

he hadn't been in seonghwas room in years, he wondered how it had changed so much since then- seonghwa had only been back for a few days and it was already tainted with dark colors and posters and all sort of things that yelled seonghwa.

he held his breath, and he could practically feel seonghwa watching him- each time he looked up seonghwa would be so close, head tipped down and eyes casted on him. there was a light from past the curtains- moonlight shining over seonghwas face, hongjoong could make out each eyelash on the olders eye- and the twinkle that casted his dark orbs.

it made him wanna squirm, wanna hide underneath the covers away from sight- he didn't like it when seonghwa watched him with those eyes, and maybe it was all in his head but hongjoong was sure seonghwa was inching closer and closer as time passed on.

"so," hongjoong cleared his throat, sitting back when he finished coating another nail, his split dyed hair hung over his forehead, brushing in front of his eyes a bit,
"how is it...being back?"

seonghwa snorted, to which hongjoong tensed up, looking up with a frown,
"what?"

"no nothing, i just find it funny how bad you are at small talk." he teased, lips tugging up into a thin smirk- the sight made hongjoong go red, he rolled his eyes,
"at least i'm trying to fill the silence- you're too busy staring at me to talk."

it was a risk hongjoong took- saying that.

a test perhaps, to see what could be said, to get a feel for where they stood since hongjoongs mind couldn't quite wrap around it on its own- and seonghwa had understood it perfectly,
"i got mesmerized," he said, eyes whisking over hongjoongs face- over the toothy smile the younger gave,
"oh please, get over yourself."

"what? you don't believe me?" seonghwa asked, watching hongjoong as he shook his head in a snicker- continuing to paint the next nail carefully. it was weird how easily they slipped into their old banter- though this time there was something else, a new feeling that made hongjoongs face heat up and heart beat quicker than normal.

maybe it was the way seonghwa would look at him, the way he would poke his tongue at the side of his cheek every now and then, or how he would drag his eyes up and down hongjoong while he spoke- hongjoong couldn't pinpoint the change between the two or when it happened, but it was there and it was unavoidable.

"mesmerized? you really couldn't do better?" hongjoong mumbled, feeling a nostalgic buzz in his chest.

softly, seonghwa said,
"you think i'm lying?"

hongjoong looked up, eyebrows scrunched and cheeks puffed out a bit, "i think you're a flirt."
at this seonghwa grinned, cheeky and sharp,
"you think id flirt with you?"
hongjoong looked back down, focusing again on painting seonghwas last nail,
"i know you would."

"you must think pretty highly of yourself joongie," seonghwa sighed, looking away from hongjoong for the first time in a few minutes to blow at the almost dried nails on his free hand. it didn't last long though because as soon as hongjoong answered his eyes were on him again, like a magnet almost- hongjoong attracted him,
"you'd flirt with anyone seonghwa- you're restless."

"but i wouldn't let just anyone paint my nails," when hongjoong looked up they were inches apart- he didn't know how they had ended up so close; seonghwas lips curled up,
his breath tickled against hongjoongs nose, warm and hot as he whispered,
"you do look really good though, hongjoong."

suddenly the air in the room felt suffocating- like a thick cloud hanging over both of them, drawing them close- pulling them together; fogging up their judgment.

hongjoong honestly didn't know how it happened, but he blinked and-
oh fuck- i was kissing him.

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hi guys :3
finally updated i feel like all of these have 800 years in between each update BUT

i got a therapist everyone say yay!

so hopefully (for real this time) updates will be coming more regularly
also i'm in the second semester of school now so i should have more time to be writing!

i'm gonna be so honest i thought about leaving wattpad for a while but that was when my mental health was 👎 and i think i'm gonna stick around for longer

life lowkey is so hard bro idk what to do BUT i rlly wanna get back into like having online friends and stuff bc i feel like i only talk to like the same two online friends (who i love v v much) and i miss talking to more SO

talk to me >:)
i wanna make friends so say hello OH BUT check my carrd first pls it's in my bio

mkay bye bye
~ lix ~

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