lie or love? [BE]

Just a break

"Jade let's go to sleep, yeah? I don't wanna fight with you. I love you,"

"Really?!"

I scoffed
"If you love me so fucking much. Why do you always lie to me? Why do you back out on plans last minute to hang with friends. I wouldn't mind if I was invited, BUT I NEVER AM!"

I immediately lost my temper and stormed away.

Or I...didn't...

Billie grabbed me by my wrist and held it tight. Not tight enough to hurt me though.

Tears forming in her eyes. She never cries.

"Please Jade. Another chance?"

She begged

I didn't know what to say. Or what to feel.
But after every dark, dull night there's a bright day waiting for you. Lucky me it's always bright in LA.

Me and Billies relationship took a drastic turn last month. She wasn't feeling great and I was with her the whole time. Holding her hand. The whole  time. But when Im feeling depressed because of what happened when I was 17..she's barely with me. She so...distant. and I want to tell her that her friends are a bad influence but they make her so....happy...but I don't.

"I...I wanna be alone,"
We're the only words that could come out of my mouth.

Billies POV:

Jade wanted to be alone. And I wanted to be with her. And I feel horrible about what I did. I do it all the time. Hang out without her. Back out on plans.
But the worst thing is. She hates me now.
And I love her...

I went near the door to our room and heard sobs and punching. She was taking her anger out on the pillow. It's her coping skill.

I slowly opened the door and the punching stop. Jade sat up and looked at me.

"Jade I...I'm so sorry..."
I sighed cupping her face in one of my hands and wiping her face with the other one.

Jade pushed my hand away and got up near our bedroom door.

"Billie..I was thinking...maybe I should go...and we should...take a break?"
Jade explained

"No. No! I can't live without you!"
I said slowly tearing up at the thought of her leaving

"And I can't live with this shítty, distant relationship! Im going to live with Conan,"
Jade then brushed passed me and started grabbing things from our closet.

"There are other ways to deal with this! Please just don't go!"

No response

"I just....I just can't let you go! Please don't try make me make you stay,"

Again. No response.

"Please stay! I'll spend more time with you! I'll try make everything better for you, for us,"

I begged

And Jade scoffed

"Us?! This isn't about us
Or you. It's about what's best for me. And that's leaving! So please Bi-"

"No! No! I'm not letting you go!"

I choked through tears saying that. It hurts thinking about her leaving me. I love her so much. I guess I'm not used to dating girls.

I threw all of her ready folded clothes on the floor and put her suitcases away.

"Billie. I'm leaving. And there's nothing you can say to make me stay"

I started crying and jade pulled me in for a tight hug.

Cries turned into sobs

And Jade. Well she didn't do anything. No crying at all.

"It's time for me to go. It's for the better," she calmly said

I sighed and looked at the floor.

Then I picked up one of her suitcases and she took it off me.

"Just a break?"
I asked

"Just a break,"
She answered

Jades POV:

Billie went and left me on my own for a while whilst I called Conan to let him know I'm coming.

I felt empty. I really don't wanna leave our house, and I don't wanna leave Billie and today probably wasn't the best day to take a break from eachother because it's her birthday tomorrow and I had so much planned. Maybe we can still do it all together as friends?

"Jade?"
Billie called.

The door was slowly creeking open.

I hummed in response and she just pulled me in for a tight hug. I hugged her back

"I'll miss you. And honestly I am a shit person. Sorry,"

I chuckled at what she said.
'shit person' no your not Billie

"You're not shit. You just got carried away, we all do sometimes. But I have to go,"

She sniffled before letting me go and grabbed my rucksack. I went to the front door and she followed me.

Loading the car.

Do I really need to go?

Don't be silly Jade, of course you do!

We will be close again.

A/N
Sorry I'm so fucking shit at writing. ANYWAYS SSS don't hate on me BC I made Billie a bad person ,😭 it'll get better I swear

816 words that's so fucking short-