Day by day, I'm drowning in my own thoughts of the ocean, and now it's slowly and completely sinking me up. I can't do anything. I just can't escape from that ocean. But I do sometimes feel like it's good for me that I'm drowning. Because at that time my mind goes blank and I can't think of anything. I feel free at that time. I'm afraid of oceans and water bodies because I have thalassophobia, but I like the ocean in my mind, and I'm not afraid of that ocean. The reason why I'm afraid of large water bodies is that I've always felt like something big is in the underwater and will swallow me if I try to swim. But the ocean in my mind does not have any creatures because I'm the one in it. That's why I'm not afraid; I'm just afraid that the creature inside me will end up destroying everything and will leave me in that state of my mind where I can't be able to do anything. But at the same time I also want the creature inside me end up destroying myself. It will feel good in this way. I just can't hear anything except the waves in my mind's ocean. It's dark and no one is there except me. I'M NUMB and JUST DROWNING BY MYSLEF.
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THALASSOPHOBIA.
AcakIt's not a story. it's just voices in my head writing this random thing.
