Hate it or love it - Central Cee

18

ALIA FERRARI

I am very much aware that my next decision might determine whether me and this boy are really done. I would be lying if I said that there are not a million thoughts running through my mind. I am scared and I really don't know how to process all of this, I want to forgive him and be able to feel the comfort of his arms but at the same time I feel trapped in a nightmare and it is time to wake up, I know my worth and this is definitely not it.

I feel how my hand tightens around the door  knob, and I think carefully before doing what I am about to do. I can feel my heart batteling with my brain, I know what I should do, I'm just not sure if it is the correct thing to do .

Without thinking twice I open the door, my eyes meeting his, I exhale before thinking what my next move will be, he waits patiently keeping his distance and that really makes me rethink my decision but at the end of the day I gotta stay true to myself.

'U really meant all of that? I ask and he nods.

'Every single word' he says and without thinking twice I hug him so tight as possible, I really did miss him I feel his grip on me tight showing how much we've both missed each other . 'I missed you' I say 'I missed u too alia' we remain in silent while we hug each other in silence enjoy each others company and our hearts connected.

'Manori, Vieni al piano di sotto a mangiare' I hear my m say causing me to break the hug, 'my mom is telling us to come down to eat ' I say and he nods. 'Manori Yh' he says and I shake my head. 'Stopp, that's my middle name' 'it's cute' we go down the stairs Interterlacing our hands as soon as my mum sees us she smiles. 'Voi ragazzi l'avete sistemato! Buono' and I laugh. 'Come on guys, come eat! We sit down on the isle and my mum puts two plates with pasta bolognaise.

'Mum this is Cee, cee this my mum Sofia' 'nice to meet you ma'am' 'it is a pleasure to meet u Cee, I can see u make Manori happy and I like that, no matter what happened before I'm glad u guys fixed it' she says and we both agree. 'Okay I'm gonna be upstairs, begot the food ' she says leaving us by ourselves.

We eat and we enjoy our company, it feels good to be back, I've really missed him. Once we're done eating, I wash the dishes and he helps me dry them.

'Okay, what you wanna do now? I ask him , felling him behind me hugging my waist 'whatever u wanna do darling, this yo city' he says and I nod 'how about we go to the arcade? There's one just fifteen minutes away from here' I say and he nods in agreement. 'Great let me go change '

I ran upstairs to my walking wardrobe, I try to search for something comfy but still cute. I end up putting on my trapstar tracksuit and my trapstar jacket as it is very cold rn. I end up leaving my hair out and I do I little bit of makeup to look more alive.

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