These past few days have been really hard for me...
Before and after our mission.
Before because... Salomé and I.. We've had our differences and own ideas of things and it only ended up with us just being upset with one another. And that's the thing.. I don't wish to be upset with her, never that. But I guess what she said is true. Her and I could never work out.. so it seems that way to me. I wish things could have been different.
I love her. I do. But I can't.. say it. I just can't tell her I love her. It'll only leave me devastated..and heartbroken. And I can't bare it. I just have to accept the fact that... she wants to go her own way and I should go mine. I wouldn't ever force her to love me.
All I remember was that she hated me. Never wanted to see me ever again. That made me shatter. Like she took a hammer and threw it straight into a glass mirror.
It hurt. It did. But even so, I wouldn't have let anything happen to her that day.
Maybe she did deserve someone better than me but... something happened.
I can't remember much... not much after I severely got injured. But she said something to me...
Something I couldn't just brush off.
She would sacrifice many, for me. And, I don't think that's something I could ever forget.
Salomé... I love you too.
You didn't have to tell me directly, but I understood that clearly.
You took care of me so well... nursing me back to my health over the past few days. You have no idea how grateful I am to you and I can't thank you enough. You care.. and you've shown me such kindness. I can't ever forget it..
When we're done with your mission... I'll miss you dearly. But I hope that you won't be rid of me completely. Visit sometimes, I hope.
And if not... I just hope that you don't forget about me. Because god knows.. I won't ever forget about you. You have a special place in my heart, whether it seems that way or not, but if fate let's us, maybe it'll all work out.
Until then... after it all. Maybe It'd have worked in another life.
