ahmmmm... what can I say.. crushing with a girl is normal but since Im also a girl it just .. freaked me out!!!!
The first time was such a.. well hard... I should know.. been there. hahaha
Well, tulad ng sabi ko mahirap... at first masaya ako pag nakikita ko sya... pag tumingin sya.. pag lumalapit... dumating sa point na everyday sya ang gusto kong makita, tapos pag nakita ko sya.. grave buo na araw ko ^_^.. and then dun na ako nag isip at nagtanong...
ANUNG NAGYAYARI SA AKIN??? BABAE SYA DBA?? BAKIT GANITO NARARAMDAMAN KO???
there you go.. CONFUSED.
and then sabi ko sa sarili.. 'NO, I'M STRAIGHT' but ..mahirap kalabanin ang puso.. once na tumibok wala ka ng magagawa kundi sundin ito ( kanta?lol!) Anyways, it took me so long para mag sink in saken na hindi ako straight.. and I cried after admitting it...dumating din sa point na I asked God 'WHY ME?'...but I still like guys..I mean.. i like girls and guys.. is that even possible???!!
One night nakikinig ako ng radyo ( hindi ko na babangitin ang station haha) and may isang caller na tumawag sabi nya bisexual daw sya.. and I was like 'ANU UN?' buti na lang pinaliwag ng DJ sabi nya " Sa mga hindi po nakakaalam ang BISEXUAL po ay yung mga taong attracted sa babae at lalake" un yung exact words na sinabi ng DJ.. at napa "Oh" na lang ako... So, bisexual ako??? GANERN???
AND THERE, maraming tanong ang pumasok sa utak ko like.. what is bisexuality? Mawawala ba to like is this some kind of a phase? Am I a lesbian already? Bakit walang forever??..KIDDING hahaha.
Well, I've done lot of research not in library though..its time consuming.. and.. i feel bored in there hahaha.. GOOGLE is such a great help, everyone will surely agree with me ^_^, Youtube (not porn okay?? Haha) There are videos explaining bisexuality, talked random persons with a bit of caution kasi they might find out and of course WATTPAD ^_^ about bisexuality......('Konpyus ako' basahin nyo po hindi sa nagpaplug ako ng story pero nakarelate ako dun sa part na naguguluhan na ung isang girl ^_^ and.. maganda yung story laptrip hahaha)
Ahmmm. thats it for now.. well if youre having a crush with a girl...just think for a while.. baka girl crush lang yan maybe shes really beautiful or something like that.. you know what girls, marunong naman tayo maka'appreciate ng magaganda right? haha... but pag dumating ung point na you feel happy by just seeing her, her smile put butterflies in your stomach,.simple glance from her makes your heart skip a bit, everything she does makes her cute......
okayyyy!! I guess.. someone is freaking out at the moment! hahaha! OH right gays I mean guys... Ito lang masasabi ko.. JUST BE YOUR SELF. May mga taong maghuhusga (madami) pero its your life.. they have nothing to do with it.. your happiness, that ONE is the most important. okay?! hahaha
Stay strong. Your not alone.
(^_^)
Love lots!
