Hawthorne

Chapter 2

Katniss' POV:

  I was stroking Buttercup's scratchy fur while I was sitting in my bed.  I don't mind Buttercup right now.  Sometimes he keeps me company, but I never admit that.  Primrose came in with mom just now.  I hadn't realized I had been crying, but I guess I was, because Prim walked right up to me and wiped my tears away.

  "Hi Prim" I tried to smile. "Hi Mom."

  "Katniss, are you okay?" Prim asked.

  "Of course I am." I tried to smile again, "They are going to fix him.  I know they can" I tucked a piece of Primrose's hair behind her ear.  Buttercup got off of my lap, and rubbed against Prim, but she kept her focus on me. Buttercup started purring. 

  And I still have Gale, if Peeta doesn't come back.   I still have Gale even if Peeta comes back.  But he's hijacked. He probably won't come back.

  "Okay, well, Im going to bed," Prim smiled, and kissed my forehead.

  "Okay, I will too." I said, but realized the door was still open, so I got up to close it.  I looked left, and then right, to see if anyone was there.  Nobody on the left.  But to the right, there was one person walking my way.  It was Gale. When he saw me, he smiled a bit, and walked a little faster.  As he got closer, he reached out for my hands, and I don't know why, but I let him take mine in his. 

  "I'm sorry. It will be okay, and," he looked at his feet. "And Peeta will come back-"  he looked up, and I kissed him.  I guess I had made my choice.  Peeta wasn't coming back.  Stupid Snow has done way worse than killing him.  He is trying to kill two birds-lovebirds-with one stone.  And that stone was hijacking. And then I realized something.  Peeta would never have been treating me like this if I was hijacked.  He would've had every single person in District 13 trying to figure something out.  And he wouldn't have ran off when I would've hated him.  When I would've wanted to kill him.  He would've stayed with me.

  And I hate myself for thinking that it's okay to be with Gale.  That it is not the other way around, because right now, he hates me.  He wants to kill me.  I have every right to be with Gale, but I think I jumped into it so fast.  I don't want to be with either one of them right now.  I don't want to lose either one of them, ever.  Unsure of my decision, I pull away from Gale, and slip back into my room without another word.  I close the door behind me, and lock it.  I then slip into my bed, and fall right asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow.