My ex is my soulmate

Chapter thirteen - Getting close

Ally's POV:

I wish that we could spend our second anniversary together. I don't know why this day upset me so much, but it did. We did so many things together. I know that I should forget about this, but how am I supposed to? I still love Austin, and I don't think that anything or anyone can change that. It's not only because he was my first boyfriend. He cared for me a lot. Sometimes even more than my parents, which I thought was impossible. To be honest, I didn't expect him to remember this day. The way he acted didn't show that he knew it. I was a mess, and he was chilling like there was nothing. I guess that this is the difference between boys and girls. During the day, mom called me to ask how I was. I guess that she remembered that day as well. I wasn't feeling that bad, but the memories were hitting hard. Sometimes I hate that I had such a good boyfriend because now I realize what I have missed. Austin is not just a boy. He is made of gold, and I let him go just like that. Without even trying to keep him. No matter how hard I try, I don't think that I will be able to find someone better. I guess that this is why it hurts so much. Maybe we can get back together, but it won't be easy, or at least for me. I did and said so many horrible things to him that I will understand if he doesn't want to get back to me.

I woke up and felt a hand wrapped around me. I looked up to see Austin. Last night he came here and I didn't tell him to go, because that is exactly what I needed. I know that we shouldn't do this because we are only friends. Even if I did this with someone else, it wasn't going to feel so good. His touch is magical, and his cuddles are something that I am dying for. I know that he will do anything for me, and maybe this is why I am trying to keep him close. We are still only friends, so I have to behave. Probably one day we should talk about this, but I am not ready. I can't tell him what I feel, because I don't know if he will respond the same way.

I looked at Austin, who was sleeping peacefully. You have no idea how good I feel that he is here. It's not like he knows it. His hair is messy, his PJ out of place, and one of his hands is around me. What more should I want? I slightly got up and kissed his cheek. It's not a good idea for me to do this, but I couldn't resist. Later, I started playing with his hair. Something that he doesn't know is that I love his messy hair. I felt eyes on me, and I looked up to see that he was awake. I wonder if he felt the kiss.

- Good morning.

- To you too.

- You like my hair, don't you? I did it like that only for you.

- Um... thanks. I never said that I liked it.

- You don't have to. After all, I know you.

I didn't say anything and buried my face in his shirt, which made him laugh. He kissed the top of my head and removed a piece of my hair from my face. Austin used to do this a lot. I looked at him, and he smiled at me. How much I miss this. I miss him.

- I miss you.

- What?

- What? - I asked, confused

- Did you just say that... you miss me?

Sh*t! Did I say this out loud? Great. Just great. Now, I have to think of something.

- No, probably you didn't hear it right.

- Yeah, sure.

- I said that I miss YouTube. With silent tube.

- Ally, you are the worst liar ever. Whatever. I don't want to think about this.

- Thank you. - I said silently

- What do you want us to do today?

- I don't know. Maybe we should start with our project.