Still With You....

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AUTHOR'S POV

Play these songs to while reading to make it more kind of realistic (Songs : my mind and me , silent cry ,empty mind)

CASSIE'S POV

06:00 am

  

I woke up with the sound of my alarm, I groaned and turned towards the alaram to turn it off...I sighed and looked at the celing of my room soft beams of rays were penetrating through the cream curtains of my room. I stretched my limbs and got out of bed before making way towards the bathroom...I looked at my reflection in mirror for a second and removed the hoodie which I didn't mind to change after getting back home...I looked at my figure which had alot of scars...scars of getting whipped by belt...I shook my head and washed my face and started doing morning routine.

Getting downstairs I made sure not to make noise while going towards the kitchen mom  was still asleep as it was just 7:00 in the morning I went up to the fridge and got milk and creals . After having my breakfast I grabbed my backpack and headed out....

If I talk about my life then there's nothing special...it can't be even called normal... growing up in toxic household has just pushed me to the darkness making me all by myself with no one by my side....it's always been hard...the feeling of not having anyone by your side to listen our to you and give their shoulders to lean on.....All I ever wished was a happy family and a good school life but instead I got parent  who sees me as a burden a regret...but thankfully my school life isn't that horrible even if I don't have friends I'm glad that I got no bullies...I always thought I was good being alone but deep down I wished someone was there to help me out and get me out of the darkness which is consuming me.....

I made my way through the bustling city , while thinking about all the shit that takes place in my life. There were sound of ambulance siren and few police men standing near a completely tranished car. "Seems like there's an accident..." I mumbled to myself before crossing the road and entering my school. I strolled through the busy hallway where everyone was gossiping and chatting around.It was  my  last senior high school year after graduating I'll make sure to get into my dream University...I made my way towards my locker and as usual I wasn't greeted by anyone I took my books and made my way towards my classroom.Its gonna be a long day today which is good as I'm away from my house .

05:00 pm

I took a deep breath before twisting the door knob and entering inside my house. I walked into the living room just to see my mom with cheap beer bottles spread around...she turned to me when she heard my footsteps. I sighed and thought of leaving from there but that's when I heard her voice.

Emma : "stop right there bitch.."

I closed my eyes as it started to fill...I knew where it was going and how it's gonna end.

Cassie : "What is it mom-"

Emma : " DON'T CALL ME MOM YOU ARE NOT MY DAUGHTER BUT A MISTAKE!!!"

She screamed right at my face without caring that how her words stung me...it's always been like this since my childhood I never had a sweet memory with my mom...she always thought  I was the reason why dad abandoned her with me . Was it my fault that they didn't want child?

Cassie : "Mom please I didn't do-"

Emma : "you ruined my FUCKING LIFE.... Because of you Jake left me why did you even born...you are nothing but a disgrace I wish you just died back then-"

Cassie : "STOP IT!!! IT WASN'T MY MISTAKE...I NEVER ASKED YOU TO GIVE BIRTH TO ME , DID I ?MAYBE BECAUSE OF YOUR SHITTY ATTITUDE DAD LEFT-"

I didn't know from where I got this much courage never in my life I ever lost my temper like this....I couldn't even finish the whole sentence a slap landed right on my cheek make me fall onto the cold floor because of the hard impact my lips busted tears started flowing through my eyes. I looked up at her who was fuming in anger , she didn't even have a slight regret in her eyes...which made me more sad, she grabbed my hair and made me stand up....her hold on my hair was so tight I felt burning sensation in my scalp .

Emma : "you really got the nerve to talk back to me huh?...what did you say Jake left me because of my shitty attitude...it's because I gave birth to a trash like you... worthless...JUST GO AND DIE AND LET ME LIVE IN PEACE YOU BITCH"

Each and every word that left her mouth were stabbing my heart...'why do I have to go through all these?' she pulled my hair and started to walk towards the door .....my eyes widen when I realised what she was going to do.

Cassie : "m-mom please...I'm sorry please don't do this...."

She rolled her eyes didn't stop my pleads didn't even bother her a bit she opened the door and pushed me out....The sky was dark as it was gonna rain any time soon. I looked at her pleading to let me in.

Emma : "just get out from here....and please do care to die .....!!!"

This was the last thing she spat on my face before shutting the door....I can't take it anymore the pain is just unbearable....She is right I'm good for nothing. I sniffed and made my way out and started to walk wherever my legs led me . Is this how I'm gonna live my rest of my life....? Dying is better than living like this.......

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TO BE CONTINUED