If Only

Chapter 12

(Chris pov)

Under the moonlight,
Slow breeze touching her fragile skin,
Playing in between her hair locks,
And making her shudder...

Dull eyes,
Unemotional face,
Inaudible speech with the moon,
And her alone in the dark....

All these things break my heart,
I feel like I am crushed under someone's foot as they vent their anger on me,
The blood in me began to flow like a storm as the emotions rush inside me,
Like the waves during the storm in between the sea...

My bloom is so bright yet so lonely...

I need to stop my car to a halt when my phone pinged with her notification.

I need to check it right there.

I need to get back inside my car and step on the acceleration.

I need to change my route.

I need to be in a distance where she can't see me.

I had to suffer from this distance.

I need to control my rage when I see him with her.

I need to make sure I don't upset her even more...

And that hits like train for me.

My distance brings her some kind of peace.

My bloom... Is upset because of me...

Should I just stop worrying her?

Should I disappear from my bloom the way I appeared?

An uninvited guest?

I realized how much it hurts me, when I came to know I was the one who hurt her.

Maybe she deserves better than me, more charming guy, one who is normal one who understands her better, one who can give attention to her, one who can take her out without worrying that someone would attack.

Maybe, this is my time to realize this and go away from her life...

But, no matter how many billion's of thoughts come in my mind right now, I would still run like a mad dog for her when I come to know she is in trouble... That's how much I love her and need her in my life.

I ever so slowly turned on the ignition and drove back home.

(At home)

"Big man!! Look it's bad guy!!", Aadhya shouted as she ran to the door when she saw me coming.

"Hey!! My beautiful flower. What did you do today?", I asked her as I scooped her into any arms and carried her to the dining.

"I played a lot of games with big man today. Also big man took me to a school and asked me if I liked it,"she started telling me about her day.

"So did you like it there?," I asked.

" Yes, I liked it. Bad guy do you know? They have so many toys to play. They also have so many colors of clay. I even met a boy there. We both became friends too. I gave him my favorite teddy bear clip for helping me to solve a question" She continued.

I took a glass and poured myself a glass of water and drank it in one gulp controlling my possessiveness.

A dude came near my little girl?.

"Very good, flower", I praised her.

"What else did you do?", I asked trying my best to calm down, it looks like my brother right there is enjoying the show way too much.

"We went to the park and there are so many cute bow bows. Bad guy can we have a bow bow please? Big guy told me to wait and ask you when you come home," She pouted.