If Only

Chapter 14

(Isha POV)

He heals a part of me.

Comes out of nowhere.

Every time.

Like he knows I am in trouble.

"Shush", he kept stroking my hair to calm me down.

The panic won't leave my body, the triggers are getting worse.

"Bloom?", he calls.

I don't lift my head. I can't face him not after everything I told him till now. 

Even though I hurt him all these days with my attitude he is here with me again, caressing me in his arms, worried about me.

I feel so weak right now.

I can't breakdown in public.

"Bloom?", he calls again.

I distance myself from him. 

"I-I'm sorry and thank you for helping me", I say still not looking at him. 

My knuckles turn white from how hard I am fisting. The shivers are still running down my spine.

I turn around and try to walk away. I can't face him. Not after this thing which happened right now.

I am pulled back by my wrist the moment I turn away, I feel the force of a car passing behind me as I try to calm under his touch. 

Inches parting us.

"Don't leave, bloom. Please", the sunlit green eyes appear to be like the marbles under the sunlight, beautiful and precious with worried expression on his face. 

"Don't leave me again, bloom. I can't let you go alone to wherever you are planning I mean not until I am sure you are fine", how much I missed his voice.

I shift my gaze from his right eye to his lips and then to his left eye absent-mindedly.

"Did you just use the triangle eye contact, Isha?" I mentally slap myself.

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We sit on the bench in the park. 

"Umm.. Just so you know, I didn't come to stalk this time. I know I shouldn't have creeped on you before but I really didn't have any intension of hurting you", he says his voice low and deep.

I still sit there quietly. My body won't stop shivering and I am still fidgeting with my legs. 

"I am sorry if I hurt you", those words leave out of me with a low voice.

"Sorry?", he asks confused.

I turn towards him slightly and look at him.

"I am sorry", I say.

"Why are you even sorry? Like bloom, you have every reason to react in that way towards me. It's fine really, I should have tried to approach you in a proper way rather than you know all the stalking and sneaking on you. But everything aside, are you fine now? ", he asked the genuine tensed tone and frowned eyebrows.

I thought he is a dangerous guy but this is completely the opposite of what I thought, just a normal guy who is madly in love and doesn't know how to approach a girl. Understandable.

" Yes, I am fine I guess", I say now looking at my hands.

He gets up from the bench suddenly and I stare at him.

"Just a minute, Isha", he says and strolls away somewhere.

He knows my name too??

Should I tell him that maybe I fell for him?