𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐍𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐓𝐨 𝐘𝐨𝐮 | ᴋᴏᴏᴋᴠ

Selfish (M)

" ...Tae... Are you doing alright...? " The omega heard Hoseok's voice as he hesitantly cracked the bedroom door open, not daring to look inside in the fear of finding the younger at any vulnerable state. " Yes hyung, I- I'm fine... " Taehyung answered calmly,  which was unexpected by Hoseok. " You can look inside hyung. " The omega chuckled out before he saw the beta's head finally appear through the crack. " ....I'm relieved to see that you are fine, if you need anything, just let me know......... 'kay? " He said with a gentle smile, Taehyung just nodded. The door slowly closed as the beta left.

Hoseok tried his best to not cover his nose in front of the omega but if he was honest... The entire room was stinking with the omega's scent. Not only the room, the whole house was reeking of the omega. None of the betas could come upstairs because of the strong pheromone and scent filled air. Seojoon was distracting himself in other tasks to make things less awkward but all of them knew Taehyung's scent and pheromones were effecting the alpha most. The alpha even managed to spend the whole morning outside. The omega's presence in heat was effecting all of them but they couldn't just leave their pack's omega in the house all by himself in this state.... He was one of their pack members, he was their responsibility... So they were just living with it...

When the omega turned up at their door at five in the morning with high body temperature and reeking heat pheromones, none of them wanted asked anything. All of them knew something was terribly wrong because Taehyung never spent his heat in their house, they never even talked about it before. As unprepared they were, they tried their best to act normal. Seojoon gave up his room and right now, all of them were basically camping at their living room... They knew well that omega would blame himself easily if he got to know that something related him was bothering them, so they were trying their best to act very casual about it all.

" How is he doing? " Seojoon asked while moving aside so Hoseok could sit. " By the looks of everything...... Not good.... He was looking so sick... When I asked if he needed anything, he said he was good.... So I left. " The beta answered. " Do you think we should call Jungkook- " " Shut up. " Yoongi said out of nowhere, giving up on pretending to be asleep at this point. " If he already had Jungkook there to help him, he wouldn't have came here. Let him be. By calling Jungkook you will do him no help. Let him figure it out by himself. If he decides to explain to us what has happened later, we will intervene. " He elaborated as he sat up. " Yeah..... you are right. " The alpha sighed out.

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[ 18+ suggestive, NSFW things. Minors don't interact. Read it with your own responsibility. Also please don't read it if you are uncomfortable in any way. ]

The omega buried his nose deeper into the alpha's pillow, attempting to take in the scent of the alpha the most he possibly could as two of his fingers worked it's way even deeper into him. His desperate moans got muffled by the pillow as he thrusted his own fingers even deeper in himself. The pillow soaked in most of his tears and drools. His mind was far gone to think about anything at this point. His slick dripped down from his hand to the sheets beneath him as he continued moving his fingers, making him more of a mess. He arched his back as he cried out into the pillow when he felt pleasure rush through his body more and more...

He felt so good... He felt so lonely... He felt so guilty because he felt so needy for him... He felt everything... He felt everything too much and he hated it... The pace of his fingers increased as all kind of filthy sounds left his throat. He still wanted more... He needed more... He wished he had more... His fingers weren't doing enough anymore. He needed someone to scent him and breed him so bad. That was the only thing he could think of right now. Unable to hold himself up with his shaky legs any longer, he collapsed onto the bed whimpering and biting the pillow beneath him. He needed to bite something... He needed to be bitten... Knotted...

Nothing felt good enough to him... Or comforting enough... Nothing was enough... His soul felt so lonely... He felt so lonely while desperately sniffing through the sheets to feel any better... Better about himself... His omega felt so unaccepted for some reason, he cried harder... Maybe it was happening because of the fact he never spent his heat alone ever since he presented... He wasn't used to it.... He wasn't used to being alone at this time. He hated how his omega was crying for the treatment he used to get in other heats... It made him feel so dependent for someone who wasn't even his. He cried into the pillow harder with the tears of grief and pleasure, not knowing what clarity was anymore as he pictured that certain vampire in his mind. He wanted him so bad... His soul wanted him so bad... His omega wanted him, too bad.

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Taehyung stared at the ceiling that seemed like was staring back into his glowing purple hazy eyes. He felt so filthy... his legs were a sticky mess... It hurt so bad he laid there helplessly. Sanity going on and off in every few minutes. He was so hungry... but exhausted as well. He wanted to get up, clean himself and then go downstairs but he knew in a few minutes he would start acting like a monster, as he liked to describe, he hated it so much, he hated himself so much, he hated this process so much...

A knock on the door grabbed his attention, he was unable to form any words so he just laid there. " Are you okay? You want some food? " He heard Yoongi's voice, he sounded so unbothered but the omega knew he was just pretending. Taehyung slowly managed to cover himself with a blanket. After not hearing anything as answer, the beta peeked inside. " Are you okay? " He asked, the younger just nodded. " Can I come in? " Yoongi asked, knowing well that omegas in heat were extremely protective about their space. The omega nodded once again. The beta came inside with the tray of food and silently it on the side table.

He turned around to close the door before leaving. " C- can you stay here hyung...... Please? " Taehyung mumbled out... hoping Yoongi would say yes. He knew he was playing a dangerous game. He knew he would lose his ability to think at any point... but he really needed some kind of comfort right now. Yoongi said nothing and just sat beside the omega, he felt so bad for the younger, his sweet milky scent had become some kind sour, stinky spoiled milk scent. " It hurts so bad hyung. " The omega absent mindedly mumbled out while leaning on the beta's shoulder. " What hurts? " " Everything. " Taehyung broke into silent tears, Yoongi knew it but he didn't try to stop him, he let him cry instead. " Sometimes it's better to not think so your heart can stop aching. " Silence settled into the room, it wasn't the uncomfortable kind, more of a depressing kind.

Taehyung had no answer for Yoongi, he didn't even try to find an answer... Maybe not having an answer was all he wanted right now. He slowly started to lose control over his mind once again but he didn't want to let go of the beta's shoulder at all. He wanted that place where he could lean on, the place he felt like he had truly lost, he selfishly wanted to hold onto it. Made him wonder, was he so selfish for using Jungkook's body to meet his own needs and then getting hurt when the vampire didn't want to help him anymore? , sometimes he did wish that he had less self loathing way of wording every situation of his.

" Can you please send Seojoon hyung here? " The omega mumbled out blankly. Yoongi stared at him in pure confusion and fear. " Huh? Tae you are not in your right mind. You have no idea about what can happen. You might regret everything when you are out of your heat- " " Please hyung. I can't do this anymore. " Taehyung whispered out in a shaky tone as he pulled away from the older to finally face him. " Do this for me hyung........ please...... " He cried out, basically begging at this point. It was so painful to see the omega cry like this, Yoongi did wish he could help in some way. " This isn't going to be any good Tae.... What are you exactly trying to do? " The beta asked in the most gentle way while he gently held the omega's face with both of his hands. Taehyung only smiled, he felt so nice, so warm. He was unable to see properly at that moment since his heat was coming back but Yoongi being so gentle with him was worth to savour every single moment of.

" Don't worry hyung.... I'm just trying to not think right now. "