It has been 4 days since lucy got home she still doesn't speak to anyone Tim tried to get her to go to therapy but even the therapist can't get anything out of lucy he prescribed some anxiety meds to see if it will help with the daily panic attacks she gets.
Every day someone from the station had come by to check up on lucy they were al worried about her especially since no one knows what happened to her. Tim called Angela every day to tell her what's bothering him. She had not eaten in days she doesn't talk to anyone she just sits there but she is not there I mis the lucy I fell in love with.
Tim had not noticed that lucy was standing in the doorframe when he said that. That's when she realized she needed to change she could not do this to tim. Lucy did not know that she had hurt Tim by not being with him.
Later that day Lucy crawled up against Tim in the bed when she whispered ''I'm sorry '' Tim who didn't expect lucy to talk didn't hear her ''what you said baby'' ''I'm sorry'' she repeated ''you don't need to be sorry you did nothing wrong you know that wright'' lucy just started crying while Tim tried to calm her down he's just happy that's she talked.
They went to sleep and the next day they went to her therapy session to see if she could get something out of lucy to help her. ''just take a seat I will let the receptionist know that we are her okay'' lucy took a seat in the waiting room as Tim talked to the receptionist.
''lucy Chen'' Tim stood up and asked lucy if she wanted him there, she nodded.
During the therapy session lucy sat on the couch with Tim next to her ''so lucy are you ready to talk about what happened that day in the warehouse'' lucy needed time to think about is even she isn't sure what happened that day, so she just kept silent. So, the therapist tried some other questions to see if she would talk but nothing worked so he turned the questions to Tim ''so how have you been feeling the last few days'' Tim looked at lucy to think about what he's going to say he does not want to hurt her even more with what he is about to say. ''well, I find it hard to help lucy is just feel helpless every time she wakes up and starts to panic nothing I do will help with the panic attacks I just hold her and wait till she is back to sleep'' while still looking at lucy he saw that she had a hard time processing what Tim said. She had no idee he felt that way and that only made her feel more guilty about the whole situation. ''so lucy how do you feel about what Tim just said. Lucy started to thing when she started to talk in a soft almost whispering voice ''I'm sorry im sorry I didn't know that you felt that way'' and started crying in front of everyone. Tim scooched over to her to comfort her ''hey it alight just focuses on you getting better okay.
After the therapy session lucy went to bed and just slept till the next day when she woke up Tim was curling her hair around his finger. ''hey there how do you feel'' Tim asked hoping to get in a conversation with lucy so they could discus whats happened the past 5 days. lucy thought about telling Tim everything he has been here fore the last 5 days taking care of me trying to help me recover even tough he doesn't know whats happening with her. ''I don't know what h-h-happened s-someone locked me in... '' there was a silence between them Tim didn't know what to say. ''w-w-when I noticed that I was locked in I just went num I couldn't think anymore started to panic and could not stop i-i...
I tried to breath but then I blacked out'' she said shivering with tears in her eyes as she looked at Tim. ''oh babe. I'm sorry I wasn't there with you'' as he hugged lucy closer to him and just started to kiss her head. That made lucy feel safe. Only Tim could not understand why she panicked when she got locked when I'm on patrol with her she seemed fine every time we where in dangerous situations. So he asked lucy why she panicked. Silence again Tim still doesn't know about the panic attacks she has since Caleb.
''ever since you found me in that barrel... I have panic attacks. But they where never so severe as the last couple attacks, every time I could control the attacks'' Tim looked at lucy with a look of disappointment why didn't she tell me I would have helped he thought to himself. Lucy also saw the disappointment in his eyes ''why didn't you tell me about the panic attacks I would have helped you through them. I hate that you haven't told anyone and went trough tis all alone.''
Lucy started to cry again just thinking about what Tim just said. Tim got closer to lucy and started to hug her.
A few days later somebody knocked on the door, lucy fell asleep so Tim went to open the door. John and bailey were standing there. ''hey guys come in lucy is asleep but take a seat'' ''hey Tim how are you holding up with everything'' baily said hoping he would tell what is bothering him. Both john and bailey see in Tim's face the tiredness and hopelessness. ''well, she started to open a bit so that's something. Also did lucy ever talk about panic attacks?'' ''not why you'd ask'' Nolan could not understand what that had to do with lucy she never had one as far he knew.
''she told me that ever since Caleb she had panic attacks, but she never told anyone about them'' at that moment lucy walked in the room bailey and Nolan said hello but lucy just sat besides Tim on the couch ''hey now that you're awake do you guy's want to eat me, and bailey brought some food thought you could use some energy. ''
''thanks, I will grab some plates so we can eat'' while eating Tim tries to get lucy some food but she would ignore it. ''please luce eat something you have not eaten in day's you can't just stop eating you will die please I can't handle seeing you like that again'' trying to convince her to eat just a few bites of the food just so she won't starve to dead. ''when was the last time she ate something'' bailey asked just to figure out haw bad the situation is. ''15 days ago, just before everything happened, she came by that day to ask if we could lunch together that day and after that everything went down hill.'' Lucy saw that he was worried about her but every time she tried to eat, she felt the urge to puke so the only solution in her eyes was to stop eating.
After bailey and Nolan left, she went to find Tim, Tim was in the bedroom he looked around to see lucy and quickly whipped his tears away he needs to be strong for her she can't see me like this. Lucy saw that Tim was crying and went over to him and apologize to Tim repeatedly trying to take the blame for all that happened this week, she puled Tim towards her and hugged him for as long as she could when she collapsed on the ground.
