poemsbygrace

You Blew It

You blew a red light
Texting
Vaping
You made a choice
That was yours
But it's the same thing
Over and over again
I saw you blew both
You got an opportunity
Now you're just going to blow it

One person
Going to the next
A son
To a stepfather

Did you want the yelling?
'Cause I didn't think you would.
I know it would only want to make you walk away.
I wouldn't blame you.
But it was your choice.

At least now I can learn from you.
Actions speak louder than words.
Actions have consequences.
Unless you make the right one's.

5 five years
You blew it
You had a seizure
But it's not like you care
You quit
But now you're lying
I saw you take it out of your hand
Cover your face with a pillow
Part of me feels like I don't know you anymore
Not for doing it
But for lying

You've heard the swearing
screaming
and yelling
I don't understand
Gone for 3 days
I wonder if she knows
And blew up

She's acting like her usual
So I don't know

It's because I do know
I don't know what to do
I know it's not my business
But now I can't unknow

I feel like I'm lying because your lying and hiding
I feel like I'm lying to her by not telling her I know

It's like when you want to know something you don't know
But now I can't unknown

I always find out these secrets
In my peripherial vision

This time I turned around
And saw the blue light
I turned back
Pretending
For you
You saw me turn and didn't say anything

Are you proud of yourself?
Is it worth it?
Why would it be worth it?
If you saw me why did you put me that in that position?

I can imagine
You wouldn't know what to say.
But there is no excuse.
I have every right to feel this way.

Do you want to lose everything?
Your Wife.
Me,
Your Stepdaughter.

I don't think you know what you're doing.

You Blew It
And it was your choice
Not our's