poemsbygrace

Do You Even Want Me In Your Life?

I only saw you once in June.
I kept asking for a next time. Every time you said, "I can't."

It took you awhile to apologize. And once you did, i took It harder, because you never ask for a next time. I always have to ask.

All I wanted was to be closer to you. Maybe think of me differently. But now I see you differently as you leave me on read for 5 days.

I feel like I always give you the benefit of the doubt, knowing you have your own life. I'm glad you do.

But, do you even want me in your life?

We went from one day in June to one day in September. You blew me off the whole summer.

I don't mean to be emotionally manipulative but. Do have any guilt or regrets? Come on tell me the truth. Are you seriously oblivious?

You used to be so supportive, now I feel so unwanted. Surprisingly, I don't hate you by now, but I wish I could.

Now I hate myself, because I never confront you. Whenever I see you, I always break those walls down and see the brighter side of you.

But when it becomes back to only texting, my head is back in the barrier.

I wonder sometimes if you think, "what the fuck do you want from me?"

I wish you were single, and I wish you aren't pregnant with someone's else's child. Yes I sound selfish.

I wish I would've been able to tell how I feel about you on time, but you went off on your own. But I know I can't control you and who comes into your life.