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𝙅𝘼𝙔𝙑𝙉𝙉 𝙈𝙊𝙉𝙏𝙀. ¥
i still had rae on my mind.
he didnt seem like he was okay the otha day, and ion know what to do.
ion know if i should say sum to him, or not. yknow, to let him know i can tell sum wrong.
like he pulled his self into me while he was sleeping, and even started muttering shit. while at the same time, squeezing me like he'll die if he let go.
the shit made me feel... ion even know.
like i really dont fucking know.
i was speechless.
hes the type of nigga who seems to like to deal with shit by his self. and, i dont wanna cross no boundaries.
nobody ina the group seemed to noticed he has sum shit going on. i mean, i didnt until a couple days ago because ive seen it in first hand.
but otha than that, to anybody else, he just seemed like an angry guy who doesnt wanna talk.
last night though, i can tell its more than that.
when we were ina car smoking, he completely shut down when i asked him why he didnt like to talk alot.
im guessing whatever happened last night, and him never actually liking to speak have sum to do with eachother.
fuck. ion know why its bothering me so much.
but for some reason, it is.
a lot.
"why did you do that to him?" haven asked me as we walked from the mall and down the sidewalk towards my car, pulling me outta my thoughts.
my mom made me take her little ass to go and get some clothes. so she gave me my car back for a bit and i brought her here.
and thats what i did, and everything was cool until this nigga appeared and started talking crazy.
i was already on edge because of rae, and he just pissed me off.
"he had that shit coming."
he was coming at her, talking outta his neck. the nigga was taller than her, and bigger than her too. i guess they had sum history but ion even play like that.
and i wasnt ina good mood as it is.
so i rocked his shit.
simple.
knocked his ugly ass head right off his body.
"im serious. marcus aint nobody to be charged with assault for. hes a lowlife nigga who can stand rejection. nobody was worried about him."
"i wasnt either, just had to make sure he knew that with my fists." I shrugged.
she rolled her eyes. "you gon get yo' big goofy ass locked up playin jayvynn."
id go to jail for my family ina heart beat. i might not like haven ass, but i love ha. nothing more to say about it.
when i didnt say anything she just let outta huff before nudging my shoulder with hers, making me look at her. "thank you though. its good to know you got my back."
"always." i said.
"but enough of the mushy shit, lets go get sum food. im hungry." she ran to the car before i could say anything.
i already bought her sum clothes and sum shoes... she finna be starving.
my mind was starting to wonder back to rae involuntarily, before i seen a familar person appear from out the corner of somewhere.
"yo, jay? where you comin from?" i see nia coming towards me.
"where are you coming from?" i retorted, making her mug me.
"nigga i asked you first."
"and i asked you second."
"yeah, you wanna get slap." she said coming to me with her hand raised.
ive been hit by her. that shit hurts. her tiny hands are no joke. i put my hands up, blocking my face. "aight aight. me and my little sister just came back from the mall."
she put her pants down and let out a "thats what i thought" before say sum else. " sister? i aint know you had a sister."
"thats because i didn't tell you." i said, and she looked like she was gon hit me again so i backed up.
"where is she?" she asked and i pointed to my car. haven seen us and waved back.
"ohhh, shes pretty. introduce us." she said. "us?" who is she-
right before i finished my thought da'jour and kai came running from wherever nia came from. and then they seen us and came over to us.
"why the fuck you take off like that?" da'jour asked nia, outta breathe.
"right, just started running like you were on crack out of nowhere." kai said, hand on da'jour's shoulder also tryna catch his breathe.
"i seen jay, and i wanted to say hey. my fault." she said, making kai and da'jour faces turn sour.
"fuck you." they said in unison.
she gave a sympatheic smile. "nah, im good. yall not my type."
i laughed as they flicked her off. "aint nun funny." da'jour said.
"then why am i laughing?" i asked.
"cause you suck." kai said.
flashes of rae start going through my mind for a split second.
what the fuck was that?
i know he been on my mind lately, but that was....
yeah.
i really dont know whats going on with me.
shit driving me crazy.
"nah, i get sucked. literally." i corrected, pushing rae outta my mind.
his face twisted up in digust, along with nia's and da'jour's.
"we aint have to hear allat." nia said.
"right. nobody wanna know what you be doin." da'jour agreed.
"at all." kai said.
i rolled my eyes. "then dont play with me. anyway, me and my sister finna get sum food, yall came in da'jour's car right? we can all go together."
how they didnt die? ion know. da'jour probably wasnt the one driving if anything.
"thats what we were gonna do anyway, but lets meet her already." nia started walking to my car to meet haven.
"you have a sister? really?" da'jour questioned.
"yeah." i said, walking behind nia.
"is she better than you?" kai asked with a raised eyebrow. tryna be funny.
"nah." nobody betta than the original.
i came muthafucking first. haven is a copy.
we first borns do it betta.
we all started walking to my car, and guess what? rae did actually make his way back into my head before we pulled off.
the nigga wouldnt just wouldnt leave my mind alone.
