Ain't got a clue (C.O.M.W)

Ain't got a clue (c1)

You're a normal guy, a man, looking over for new things in your life to let yourself have an update and get things right. Normal life, job, friends, girlfriend, everything seems stable, you have a good position and image around other people, you're behaved, letting them know how good of a person you are.

But somehow, you still don't feel enough, you feel like you need to do even more, work, harder, SMARTER! After all, you must have a reason, right? You feel weird going around with different personalities changing every single time you're with someone, everything starts to feel repetitive, and start looking for a way out. Everyone told you about finding what's good and what's bad, also what to not get into, you decide to go for your friends to chill and relax while your mind clears again.

Now is the start.

You've decided to join your friends in a zone near from where you live, you have everything planned for the day with 'em, normal things of some good ol' friends! (Eat, play, talk and stuff, don't ask me). Even tho, you seem a bit off, your friends start asking you if there's anything bothering you at the moment, but you give no answer and start talking about something completely apart from the theme.

They still seem to wonder what's going on after a while, you don't seem to enjoy absolutely anything, you want to tell them what's going on but words just won't come out, you're completely speechless, did the mouse catch your tongue? Not even you know, seems like you were anesthetized when the mouse's job was being done.

After some time already, the whole group goes to your house, you all agreed on staying the night, anyways, it's weekend! You all got time!

Everyone sits in the kitchen table, you start doing one of your favorite recipes (if there's anybody that doesn't like it you'll eat it anyways, you ain't gonna waste any food!). You finally start to enjoy the night by their side, but all that changes when you get sudden thoughts, feelings, worries about your life and future, flashing memories going around and around in front of your eyes, clearly getting dissy by all of them.

You last going to the bathroom for getting some water in your face, you start feeling sick, it's hard to breathe, it's getting more difficult to calm down, you start getting more and more anxious. Someone knocks on the door, „BUSY!“.

Everything starts to blur, the dizziness is getting way worse than before, you feel like you're gonna fall, your legs start failing, start sweating, like if you were inside a sauna or something similar, temperature seems to increase even more by time passes by.

Someone knocks on the door yet again, you open it.

It's actually just Julian, he was worried about you, you spent a lot of time in the bathroom after you left the kitchen so quickly, „dw J, i'm alright“, but he still doesn't trust. J has been noticing how you were acting lately, and by you, of course it wasn't normal at all.

J has known you since long ago already, even more than most of the people in your actual friend group, he kept asking you what was going on, but the mouse hasn't returned you your tongue yet, so you just tell him you'll get to explain it soon enough.

Bedtime arrives, there's people sleeping on the floor, on the couch, and some crazy guy even got to attach himself to the roof!  Anyways, you went to your bed, while all from a sudden J appears by your side.
„I don't feel much good while knowing something's wrong with you, are you able to speak now?“.