Confused In Love

I Never Said Goodbye!

The next couple of days were amazing. I talked to Chris on the phone went to Jessica's house until I got the worst ever. My dad and James had been out all day but I had no clue why. I tried calling all day but they rushed me off the phone! To get my mind off things me and Jessica went shopping at Mandee's to buy some shoes and clothes. The day went by pretty quick, when I got home it was already 7:00 at night. Suddenly my dad came home with James and I started yelling at them for not talking to me.

They didn't seem to love a muscle as I yelled. Then out of nowhere dad and sat me down in the sofa by James. " Sweetie I have something to tell you. Uncle Gary past away early this morning. He got shot twice in the stomach and chest but we don't know who did it." Suddenly the world stopped and was in a puddle of tears. My favorite uncle, my best friend has died and I didn't even know a all day?! I had fun not knowing what was really happening. " You knew all day and didn't wanna call and tell me?! I don't what you thought you were doing but have NO right to wait and tell me now!"

I burned with anger my cheeks red, I felt like I was going to explode inside. " Kayla I'm so sorry about uncle." James said quietly as I stood up and walked away. I walked up stairs to my room just crying and crying. I couldn't believe he really died! I wanted to kill someone right now from how angry and sad I was. My uncle was married to my aunt and had 6 kids, the youngest being 9 years old. I crawled in my bed crying so hard. Why would someone shoot him? What had he done? He was a nice, sweet, and chubby man that bothered no one.

I couldn't believe he was actually dead! I never told him a proper goodbye. The last thing we shared was when I slept over his house to spend time with them. We went to go pic up my aunt from work and me and my youngest cousin took a picture and he said we looked like models. ' You girls are going to be models and I'm gonna be there to see it' he said to us as he looked at the picture. The next day when my dad picked me up he said to make sure I come the next weekend because he'd like to see me again but that ended quick.

That whole week I spoke to no one except for when I called Jessica to tell her what happened. Everyone sent flowers and tried to comfort me but I wanted to be alone. Chris called but I sent it to voicemail, he probably felt rejected. I didn't want to ruin what we had that fast so I texted and said I wanted to be alone for a while and he respected that. My life was over, I was depressed and wouldn't eat or talk. I visited my aunt for two weeks and the kids and her weren't doing so well either. Even they felt sorry for me and I didn't like it! I just wanted people to stop being sorry!

Three weeks had passed and his funeral was tomorrow. I couldn't think about a life without him but I guess I had to. As soon as I saw open casket I guested into tears. Screaming and crying at the same time, I couldn't breathe. He looked so different, his skin was tanned and shiny, he was less fat, he no longer had his beard, and he was stiff. I was afraid to go up to him because I knew I would have a panic attack. Right before they closed the casket they asked for his kids to come up. When they did they wanted me also, but I shouldn't have gone because as soon as I saw him I said I love you and passed out.

I woke up in an office with food by my side. As I looked around I saw my cousin Maya. " What am I doing in here Maya? I'm supposed to be in the room." She shook her head and told me what happened. " Did they close the casket yet?" Suddenly she looked down I started to cry "He's not really gone! Please tell me he is standing next to me smiling!" I cried. Jessica called to check up I me and she gave me advice from when her mom died. I felt a little better but not much. I knew my life was over starting right now. Without my uncle, I wasn't truly alive.